What am I doing? It's evening already!
I'm being a non-productive member of society again. I got up late, which is nothing new, but still more than mildly irritating. The alarm clock holds no more power over me, this is an unfortunate development.
In any case, I got up, did nothing productive. Then I made food for my sister, we watched a bit of news, found German TV to be mind-numbing. Following that I watched two episodes of German dub SPN (still brilliant). Then grabed my tea, a chair, waffles and a blacket and planted my butt down on the veranda. It was rather relaxing, the sun was out, I had warm tea, it was really quiet apart from birds chirping. Really idyllic, I liked that. Then I reverted back to vegetable and sat in front of the computer. Did nothing, felt like I should do something. I cleaned the kitchen and now my hands are all shrivelly. I browsed some SPN stuff, waited, searched for a wig but didn't really find anything I liked, got annoyed at myself because I forgot to leave feedback for one article (I think, because it's gone). And here I am again.
I should do something. But I think the best I can do right now with my level of motivation and "I don't care about stuff" attitude is post what I've written and hope inspiration hits me sooner than later.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh! Do you know? At times I wished I didn't worry so much about what people thought. Because I'm sure it would feel terrific to just walk into the forest and scream at the trees.
P.S. Regarding the story I'm about to post I'm wondering how considerate I have to be with putting up warnings... I'm over thinking things again, typical of me.
P.P.S I want to read stuff... But then I always think "don't be a chicken now! Review!". I want to, then I revert to chicken, then I click it away, then I feel bad. And then I rant about "black-readers" and feel like a hypocrite! Argh! But I still want to read stuff >w
In any case, I got up, did nothing productive. Then I made food for my sister, we watched a bit of news, found German TV to be mind-numbing. Following that I watched two episodes of German dub SPN (still brilliant). Then grabed my tea, a chair, waffles and a blacket and planted my butt down on the veranda. It was rather relaxing, the sun was out, I had warm tea, it was really quiet apart from birds chirping. Really idyllic, I liked that. Then I reverted back to vegetable and sat in front of the computer. Did nothing, felt like I should do something. I cleaned the kitchen and now my hands are all shrivelly. I browsed some SPN stuff, waited, searched for a wig but didn't really find anything I liked, got annoyed at myself because I forgot to leave feedback for one article (I think, because it's gone). And here I am again.
I should do something. But I think the best I can do right now with my level of motivation and "I don't care about stuff" attitude is post what I've written and hope inspiration hits me sooner than later.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh! Do you know? At times I wished I didn't worry so much about what people thought. Because I'm sure it would feel terrific to just walk into the forest and scream at the trees.
P.S. Regarding the story I'm about to post I'm wondering how considerate I have to be with putting up warnings... I'm over thinking things again, typical of me.
P.P.S I want to read stuff... But then I always think "don't be a chicken now! Review!". I want to, then I revert to chicken, then I click it away, then I feel bad. And then I rant about "black-readers" and feel like a hypocrite! Argh! But I still want to read stuff >w