what happend
i know i do not post very often, but i was looking tonight at my past lj's
have i changed? have i lost touch with the once cute a innocent little boy that everyone loved and was friends with?
was that the real me? or was that a manfestation of what people wanted me to be, and me being the impressionable young man that abided by it willingly and with out question morphed my self into what peopled liked.
was i that needy and unhappy that i was nice to everyone and everything just so that they'd like me???
im no longer sure of anything, not like i was ever sure, but now i feel as if i might be making a mistake. or a series of mistakes. or maybe its some sort of test planned out that is now making it harder on me, so i become a better person not driven on selfishness and pleaseing others, but guided by self preservation and morality
im may not know what up is, but i have a real stong belifes how ever shaking and unstable and unable to follow through on his own feelings, i am i still have them
im just waiting now for something to happen so all of you who still look at your lj's when you think that thing is going to happen, fill me in
i think i need to start up dating more often, it alows me to let out my exess bullshit cramed up in the head, well see ya guys later
have i changed? have i lost touch with the once cute a innocent little boy that everyone loved and was friends with?
was that the real me? or was that a manfestation of what people wanted me to be, and me being the impressionable young man that abided by it willingly and with out question morphed my self into what peopled liked.
was i that needy and unhappy that i was nice to everyone and everything just so that they'd like me???
im no longer sure of anything, not like i was ever sure, but now i feel as if i might be making a mistake. or a series of mistakes. or maybe its some sort of test planned out that is now making it harder on me, so i become a better person not driven on selfishness and pleaseing others, but guided by self preservation and morality
im may not know what up is, but i have a real stong belifes how ever shaking and unstable and unable to follow through on his own feelings, i am i still have them
im just waiting now for something to happen so all of you who still look at your lj's when you think that thing is going to happen, fill me in
i think i need to start up dating more often, it alows me to let out my exess bullshit cramed up in the head, well see ya guys later