wk end
Time : 0840 10/01/2005
hm.. its a glommy morning... kinda like my mood..
friday n saturday my mood was super lousy... perhaps my brain working overtime thinking things tat i should not be thinking about.. aniwei.. saturday was one wet saturday... went out in the afternoon.. met up with my fren at bugis.. went temple pray then over to sim lim.. cos he wanted to look at some stuff.. later another fren join us then we wanted to go play pool.. who knows.. the moment we step out of sim lim.. we saw the heavy rain.. we ran from shelter to shelter.. haha.. must be a funny sight.. in the end waited at mac for the rain lessen... went to a place near shaw tower.. think its called pool fusion.. then had our fun.. initially i was all ok.. until.. i received her sms to thannk me for the present.. then the monster n mood all come back.. i started thinking aloh.. had a short n tense sms conversation with her.. cos she is jus like replying for the sake or replying.. aniwei cos all of them wanna go home early.. so i also went home early.. tried calling other ppl but they alll have programs liao.. in the end.. went home..got 2 bread from breadtalk as dinner.. n bought beer.. yes... i drank again on saturday.. i know its unhealthy.. but its the best n fastest short term solution to help beat this monster.. cos when i drink til high.. i wun be able to think too much.. jus think of sleeping.. did call up a fren.. n accordign to wat she told me yesterday.. i toked funny on saturday.. haha.. but ok la.. she too asked me to get to know more ppl.. perhaps find a new target... n i replied her "huh.. so easy to find huh.. wanna find then find.. somemore i dun hav ani qualities to attract ppl... then to find someone to replace or as subsititute would be veri unfair to the ger..." maybe my thinking is not rite.. but personally i feel its unfair to the other person.. who knows.. aniwei i am trying to go out n mix aronud more.. but its hard.. cos my circle of frens are small.. n quite a numbver of my frens are like from online.. hahaha.. so we only chat online.. some tok on the phone a while.. tats all.. n for those who are attached.. i try not to disturb them during wk ends.. cos wk ends are the time where couples will try to spend more time together.. haha..
sunday woke up at 8 despite drinking n sleeping at 2+... mood was slightly better.. perhaps cos the morning i was busy helping my mum to cook..haah.. yeah.. find tat somehow i kinda like cooking.. haha.. perhaps tats y i would like to one day hav a food stall or cafe.. haha.. after lunch slept almost half my afternoon away.. haha.. then at nite.. was online... dl the new msn 7.0 beta.. haha.. its more cute.. haha.. lucky sunday monster took a break.. but as i was sleeping.. this morning.. i dreamt of her again.. realli sucks... how come of so mani ppl i keep dreaming of her..
wooo... i jus realised... today is the 3rd mth we broke up... n if we were together would be the 10th mth together.. hahah...
not sure wat i gonna do later.. shall see how..
hm.. its a glommy morning... kinda like my mood..
friday n saturday my mood was super lousy... perhaps my brain working overtime thinking things tat i should not be thinking about.. aniwei.. saturday was one wet saturday... went out in the afternoon.. met up with my fren at bugis.. went temple pray then over to sim lim.. cos he wanted to look at some stuff.. later another fren join us then we wanted to go play pool.. who knows.. the moment we step out of sim lim.. we saw the heavy rain.. we ran from shelter to shelter.. haha.. must be a funny sight.. in the end waited at mac for the rain lessen... went to a place near shaw tower.. think its called pool fusion.. then had our fun.. initially i was all ok.. until.. i received her sms to thannk me for the present.. then the monster n mood all come back.. i started thinking aloh.. had a short n tense sms conversation with her.. cos she is jus like replying for the sake or replying.. aniwei cos all of them wanna go home early.. so i also went home early.. tried calling other ppl but they alll have programs liao.. in the end.. went home..got 2 bread from breadtalk as dinner.. n bought beer.. yes... i drank again on saturday.. i know its unhealthy.. but its the best n fastest short term solution to help beat this monster.. cos when i drink til high.. i wun be able to think too much.. jus think of sleeping.. did call up a fren.. n accordign to wat she told me yesterday.. i toked funny on saturday.. haha.. but ok la.. she too asked me to get to know more ppl.. perhaps find a new target... n i replied her "huh.. so easy to find huh.. wanna find then find.. somemore i dun hav ani qualities to attract ppl... then to find someone to replace or as subsititute would be veri unfair to the ger..." maybe my thinking is not rite.. but personally i feel its unfair to the other person.. who knows.. aniwei i am trying to go out n mix aronud more.. but its hard.. cos my circle of frens are small.. n quite a numbver of my frens are like from online.. hahaha.. so we only chat online.. some tok on the phone a while.. tats all.. n for those who are attached.. i try not to disturb them during wk ends.. cos wk ends are the time where couples will try to spend more time together.. haha..
sunday woke up at 8 despite drinking n sleeping at 2+... mood was slightly better.. perhaps cos the morning i was busy helping my mum to cook..haah.. yeah.. find tat somehow i kinda like cooking.. haha.. perhaps tats y i would like to one day hav a food stall or cafe.. haha.. after lunch slept almost half my afternoon away.. haha.. then at nite.. was online... dl the new msn 7.0 beta.. haha.. its more cute.. haha.. lucky sunday monster took a break.. but as i was sleeping.. this morning.. i dreamt of her again.. realli sucks... how come of so mani ppl i keep dreaming of her..
wooo... i jus realised... today is the 3rd mth we broke up... n if we were together would be the 10th mth together.. hahah...
not sure wat i gonna do later.. shall see how..