snow!!
SNOW DAY!!!!!! =D
(This entry is a longer one ... lol) Yesterday we had a half day and today we have a snow day....this is great!!!!! The second developmental for indoor was postponed till Monday...that made my day! lol. I really need this little break from everything. This past week I've been really stressed out. I've felt like I could never be good enough .. and it's getting on my last nerve now. Honestly I have not been stressed out at all since 2005 began..what 6 days ago? .. and now I'm sooo stressed and aggrivated with what is going on here and I'm just sick of it.
I feel like I have to try as hard as I can to make everyone happy and try to impress them all...and (this may sound conceited) but I'm getting annoyed with trying to do/be something/someone for everyone else. I feel as though I'm living my life for someone else...why can't I live my life for me?? It's my life .. I want to live it to the fullest and have fun..but up until now.. I haven't been doing that..and that's going to have to change now! I like to have fun and be outgoing. I like hanging out with people, but I can not stand being fake!! I hate fake people and fake things .. so why should I be doing things for other people..when I don't want to do them...that sounds like being fake .. does it not?? Wtf ...life is realllllllly screwwy...and I'm sick of it!!!! I realize I'm learning a lot more about life and about people throughout these harder times, I understand learning is valuable, but right now I just want to have some fun!!!
Hopefully today's day off will help me relax and just feel better as a whole...if not then I'm just screwed!!! I need to listen to some Hanson to help me feel better - lol Kim - hopefully I'll be able to go to the hockey game tonight and escape from this mess!
<3 Jill
I will leave with this - - every time that I look in the mirror all these lines on my face getting clearer the past is gone it went by like dusk to dawn isn't that the way everybody's got their dues in life to pay yeah, I know nobody knows where it comes and where it goes I know it's everybody's sin you got to lose to know how to win half my life's in books' written pages live and learn from fools and from sages you know it's true all the things come back to you sing with me, sing for the years sing for the laughter and sing for the tears sing with me, if it's just for today maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away dream on, dream on, dream on, dream yourself a dream come true dream on, dream on, dream on, and dream until your dream comes true dream on [7x]