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I'm so messed up in the head. You know, I honestly don't feel like I even LIKE Nacho as a person at this point in time but my emotional reactions towards him and his life - always surprise me.
I feel that it might be that I've developed these habits of being overly emotional with him that now I can't stop even though I don't feel like I even like or care about him. I don't like when he's around me. I don't like the way he makes me feel. I don't like his personality.
He has a girlfriend. He told me the other day. I don't FEEL like I want to be with him but why am I such a mess over this news? I don't want him around me - i don't think about him on a daily basis. Why do I care? Why did I flip out? I didn't cry -- I just feel anxiety ridden for some reason. I'm such a mess.
I honestly think it's just a habit now. A habit I keep trying to talk myself out of.
OH and the girl is hideous.
I feel that it might be that I've developed these habits of being overly emotional with him that now I can't stop even though I don't feel like I even like or care about him. I don't like when he's around me. I don't like the way he makes me feel. I don't like his personality.
He has a girlfriend. He told me the other day. I don't FEEL like I want to be with him but why am I such a mess over this news? I don't want him around me - i don't think about him on a daily basis. Why do I care? Why did I flip out? I didn't cry -- I just feel anxiety ridden for some reason. I'm such a mess.
I honestly think it's just a habit now. A habit I keep trying to talk myself out of.
OH and the girl is hideous.