pt DOS
Alright... as I was gonna say:
Rory- I am very very happy. And I'm not just saying that. If I could go back a couple months I would definatly have done EVERYTHING differently. I would never have listened to anyone telling me bs about you.. I would have waited and found out whatever I needed to know on my own. I also wouldnt have taken advantage of how nice he was to me. I wish that we had had the summer or the ending of summer when we started to hang out again like it is now bc I love to be happy and now I am and its for real. But then i think about it and I think it all worked out for the best. Even though shit happened.. but its okay now. And we both know if anyone is gonna try to fuck it up they cant. They can prolly piss me off and make me mad at him.. but obviously, i must trust Rory enough bc its happened 45390485739457 times.. and it always ends quickly. I'm a very lucky person. Yesterday i was sooooooo pissed at him for not answering his phone bc I knew we had plans and I k new it was a surprise but he wasnt answering the phone. But he didnt fight with me he laughed at me. Then it made me not wanna be mad at him anymore. Then sometimes I think its not gonna last bc something is gonna go wrong. BUT!!! i know that wont happen either. Bc neither one of us would let it. This is a very different relationship than I have ever been in. Theres really touchy subjects that cant be talked about then theres other things that shouldnt be talked about but always are for no reason. I have never been so worried before but then so laid back at the same time. Its weird... Everything would seriously be perfect if I could just focus on what he says and take it as the truth rather than me assuming crap that eventually i KNOW isnt true. I need to calm it down. Also, I know people are gonna lie to ruin it and i shouldnt let it get to me. And i know ppl are gonna call him that he doesnt want to talk to and then i need to realize that all those calls are unwanted and he cant help it. I think i do know it and i wouldnt give him a hard time about it except im worried that one time i might be right. but i doubt it. i cant see it.
But it will be fine. I'll learn that just bc somethings good for once it doesnt have to get ruined pronto. This is good. i like it. im happy. and im making someone else equally happy. and i LOOOOOVE it.
im very very happy. goooooood.
And I am also in love with amanda. i miss manda. awwwww. i want to see manda on new eyars!! and dan!! bc i miss both of you poo heads.