hymn
and i don't buy your cookie cutter sighs, your cute blonde bounce, your sadistic smile. girls made of plastic don't turn me on. get yer Emm are Esss and leave me alone. Leave trouble to the ones who like it
forging a new existence, a new kind of silver. liquid metal held in your cupped hands, see how it fills the lines and crevices
mourn from a distance for a youth never found, let alone lost. serenade my heart and maybe i'll love you forever. give me your mouth and your curves and your lines. hard/soft give/take Bequeath me your hair and I'll always be yours.
finally fine to be honest, to be blunt. this is the freedom to do what i want when i don't care what you think. the only few people in this world matter to me because i know they won't leave. I won't love you until i know you won't leave. and i will put you through one hell of a test.
drum beat thrum it pounds in the cliche. in the veins. breathe through your mouth to cool off your tongue.
betray, betray, betray. the impact of a single word. never never bias. selfish. I am okay with wanting what i want. loving what i have. that i have what i have. constantly weeding out the unnecessary. burning away the excess. finding the core.
flare. consumed. this is the phoenix, this is the revolution, the revelation. fluttering but i will catch you. struggling but i've got you. reel in the butterfly so fragile. the only meaning is what you give it. you have absolutely no idea what i am thinking at exactly this moment. try to name a time. give me a place in the past and the future and i will meet you there presently.
forgive me father for i have sinned. but not as badly as you. starry-eyed child, fire in your hair.
crescent moons are only tension. i know how my hands look.
the warm smell of you on my sheets, the way it wafts up when you move, the way you fit so perfectly in my arms. this is not typical. love it. deoderant and sex.
who can call us in? who can reign us back? the circle ever-widening. hiding in the trees, leaves in our eyes, this is my world now, you cannot encroach, you cannot impinge.
bring my body my family my whole into one place and one time, one being. take me to an island of the soul. recycle me in sweet potatoes.
the ones that matter will not leave you. some with their butter orange lies, breathing noxious fog into the heads of others, why would you hurt me that way? such potential to understand, to help one another. I know you better than I know myself, and that's why i can't help you. you're too sick for me to break in.
i have never been more serious. I have never been more playful. everything said here is true. but do you know what it means? if i were to die no one would know all of my passwords.
if you can breathe then you can laugh and you should. complain and i'll kiss you all better. pity is not love. hate is not love. obsession is life.
holding my breath so i won't float away. concrete completion. don't try to make sense of this. I certainly can't.