Into Eternity
Title - Into Eternity
Pairings - none
Rating - G
Length - drabble
Genre - general
Disclaimer - I don't own DBSK
Summary - He even misses Yoochun and how he would trip over him because he's sprawled out sleeping in the weirdest places, like the time he was unconscious behind the couch stuffed partially between it and the wall.
Started 5:49 PM
Rough Draft completed 6:13 PM
Complete Draft 6:21 PM
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Sometimes he misses them. Well, okay, not sometimes but all the time. It's like there's a gaping hole in his chest that refuses to close no matter how many times stitches are applied. It aches, a throbbing wound that reminds him every second what's missing.
His work helps. He throws all of himself into it so that by the time he gets back to the apartment (their apartment) he's too tired to do anything else but fall into bed and sleep, not even dream.
But sometimes, at the oddest moments, he'll catch himself thinking about them. Hyung would have liked that he thinks. And he'll miss them even more, especially when he doesn't work that day and has nothing to do because he's stuck in the apartment, while he wanders around from room to room. He'll miss Jaejoong in the kitchen trying a new recipe and yelling at him to Get out and stop stealing the food! Or he'll think about Junsu and how annoying he is when he's yelling at the top of his lungs and laughing at the same time, challenging him to another game and gloating because he's just won the last one. He even misses Yoochun and how he would trip over him because he's sprawled out sleeping in the weirdest places, like the time he was unconscious behind the couch stuffed partially between it and the wall. And Yunho would be sitting or standing there, watching them with a stern expression (that really did show how he was their Appa) but was belied by the laughter in his eyes. But most of all, he misses them.
And then the wound would throb harder and bleed all over again and nothing would close it, not even Yunho-hyung's smiles and hugs and encouragements.
He forgets to eat now too. He skips meals because he's not hungry and it just doesn't feel the same anymore, not without them. He didn't even notice himself, avoiding mirrors and the bags under his eyes and his pale expression, until a photo leaked onto the internet and his hyungs were calling him secretly every hour for three days, asking him Have you eaten yet Changmin-ah? and You should take care of yourself Dongsaeng and even Why the hell isn't Yunho taking care of you? Where is he? I'll go beat him up for you.
And he's annoyed but also happy because it's like they're there again and his replies (Hyung I've eaten an hour ago; I know Hyung I'm just tired from working sheesh; You can't beat up Yunho-hyung Jaejoong-hyung or I'll have to suffer by myself while he's in the hospital. Are you trying to make me suffer on purpose?) doesn't have as much bite to them as they used to (he'll have to work on that or Junsu would never let him live it down).
Are you sure you're alright Changmin-ah?
Yes Hyung
And he is and they will be. It's only a matter of waiting patiently for awhile, like they did when they were waiting for success in Japan (he just hopes it doesn't take that long because he'll definitely go and kidnap all four of them if it does).
He takes a deep breath and lets it out in a whoosh. They'll be alright.
XxX
I was actually just laying in my bed when I started thinking. The first thoughts that turned into this drabble was the summary. I hope you all liked it! Please comment!
Pairings - none
Rating - G
Length - drabble
Genre - general
Disclaimer - I don't own DBSK
Summary - He even misses Yoochun and how he would trip over him because he's sprawled out sleeping in the weirdest places, like the time he was unconscious behind the couch stuffed partially between it and the wall.
Started 5:49 PM
Rough Draft completed 6:13 PM
Complete Draft 6:21 PM
XxX
Sometimes he misses them. Well, okay, not sometimes but all the time. It's like there's a gaping hole in his chest that refuses to close no matter how many times stitches are applied. It aches, a throbbing wound that reminds him every second what's missing.
His work helps. He throws all of himself into it so that by the time he gets back to the apartment (their apartment) he's too tired to do anything else but fall into bed and sleep, not even dream.
But sometimes, at the oddest moments, he'll catch himself thinking about them. Hyung would have liked that he thinks. And he'll miss them even more, especially when he doesn't work that day and has nothing to do because he's stuck in the apartment, while he wanders around from room to room. He'll miss Jaejoong in the kitchen trying a new recipe and yelling at him to Get out and stop stealing the food! Or he'll think about Junsu and how annoying he is when he's yelling at the top of his lungs and laughing at the same time, challenging him to another game and gloating because he's just won the last one. He even misses Yoochun and how he would trip over him because he's sprawled out sleeping in the weirdest places, like the time he was unconscious behind the couch stuffed partially between it and the wall. And Yunho would be sitting or standing there, watching them with a stern expression (that really did show how he was their Appa) but was belied by the laughter in his eyes. But most of all, he misses them.
And then the wound would throb harder and bleed all over again and nothing would close it, not even Yunho-hyung's smiles and hugs and encouragements.
He forgets to eat now too. He skips meals because he's not hungry and it just doesn't feel the same anymore, not without them. He didn't even notice himself, avoiding mirrors and the bags under his eyes and his pale expression, until a photo leaked onto the internet and his hyungs were calling him secretly every hour for three days, asking him Have you eaten yet Changmin-ah? and You should take care of yourself Dongsaeng and even Why the hell isn't Yunho taking care of you? Where is he? I'll go beat him up for you.
And he's annoyed but also happy because it's like they're there again and his replies (Hyung I've eaten an hour ago; I know Hyung I'm just tired from working sheesh; You can't beat up Yunho-hyung Jaejoong-hyung or I'll have to suffer by myself while he's in the hospital. Are you trying to make me suffer on purpose?) doesn't have as much bite to them as they used to (he'll have to work on that or Junsu would never let him live it down).
Are you sure you're alright Changmin-ah?
Yes Hyung
And he is and they will be. It's only a matter of waiting patiently for awhile, like they did when they were waiting for success in Japan (he just hopes it doesn't take that long because he'll definitely go and kidnap all four of them if it does).
He takes a deep breath and lets it out in a whoosh. They'll be alright.
XxX
I was actually just laying in my bed when I started thinking. The first thoughts that turned into this drabble was the summary. I hope you all liked it! Please comment!