gaping wound (December 30th, 2010)

[silkfetus]

i don't know why
do i feel this
i don't remember

ever
such pain so severe
so much i don't understand

my life has not ended
no one is dead
his life continues
i imagine
him fucking
his russian princess
with small breasts and cellulite
and why
am i here
motionless
alone
with regrets
a sadness so deep carving a chasm in my chest
poison leaking from my eyes
ceaseless
senseless
tragically stupid
i finally understand
the need to induce numbness by any means at any cost
and for what?
a pair of pretty eyes and a cock