"And all the fears you hold so dear, will turn to whisper in your ear"
The most important thing to get out of the way is that I didn't get the MBC job. Oh, well. I wasn't particularly expecting it but I was hoping. However, after updating my resume at a couple of online places a couple of weeks ago I got a whole bunch of emails from contracting companies with short-term job offers. I sorted through them and replied to a few and have now had two interviews. I'm pretty hopeful for these too; the one today went especially well I think.
Now it's just waiting to hear back from people. It sounded like today's people want someone ASAP and I was the last interviewee so hopefully I will hear back from them soon. Two of the people I saw today said some variation of "This position is a really good fit for you". And they kept me an extra half hour so I could get a nice tour of the facilities!
Heh, and at the interview last week one of the people I talked to looked faintly disgusted when I mentioned that I'd been laid off because I only had an AAS degree. Hm. Actually, one of the ones today was kind of like that too. Sort of an "oh, so they made their decision based on credentials rather than ability".
I feel slightly heartened by all that.
I was reading the advice column at Captain Awkward last week and in one of the comments sections, in reference to letter about a bad breakup, someone said "You don’t have to be perfect for a bad situation to be not your fault." I mean, it's not the same (I only dimly remember my last breakup), but there's some similarity. I've been spending a lot of time second-guessing myself, trying to figure out what I did wrong and if there was anything I could have done differently to keep my job. Sure, my job drove me crazy and I wanted out but it's still a blow to ego. Especially since I'd put my own job hunt on hold because of the LIS install (starts soon!). Loyalty really is only a one way street these days, I guess.
Oh, I know I didn't do anything wrong (mainly because these people were not shy about just firing others in the office so I'm sure if they'd had a reason to fire me they would have). But there's knowing it and knowing it. I'm still working on getting my subconscious to really know that, because it doesn't really. I put so much effort and, well, work into proving myself so this wouldn't happen again. I think that's why it's so hard to really wrap my head around it. How good I was at my job did not matter, at all. New management came in and didn't even wait until they'd been around long enough to make any sort of determination of skill on any of our parts.
And I was right in my prediction. Things have not been going great at my old job but all the overtime and stress fell onto only one of my ex-coworkers. My replacement (!, yes, she started a couple of weeks ago; they'd already hired her when they laid me off, announced them to everyone else at the same time) is new and was out last week getting the training I'd already had. One coworker has been in the hospital. And the other whines and whines if she ever has to stay more than 5 minutes past her normal end time. Poor guy even called me a couple of weeks ago (good lord, it hasn't quite been a month since I got laid off) asking me to help him out with some instrument issues. I gave him a couple of steps but told him I couldn't really help him. I wanted to help but ... I'm definitely not going to work for those people if I'm not going to get paid for it.
Oh, hey, they finally closed my email account. I'd wondered when that was going to happen.
I did get approved for unemployment starting this week, which is a bit of a load off my mind. I'm working on getting my own insurance since COBRA is insanely expensive but I could still fall back to it if I have to. Of course, if I do manage to get one of these contract positions then I could have gone with a slightly better plan than the cheap one I picked. No way to know that when I picked it out! And hopefully I won't need to be on it for long. Or perhaps I can switch to something else after a little bit or something.
I tried to go back and reread this to see how it flowed since I pretty much just babble-typed at you at various points throughout today and I kept going back and changing things and now I'm not even sure it's coherent. I'm tired and I want to post this so I hope it's not terrible!
Now it's just waiting to hear back from people. It sounded like today's people want someone ASAP and I was the last interviewee so hopefully I will hear back from them soon. Two of the people I saw today said some variation of "This position is a really good fit for you". And they kept me an extra half hour so I could get a nice tour of the facilities!
Heh, and at the interview last week one of the people I talked to looked faintly disgusted when I mentioned that I'd been laid off because I only had an AAS degree. Hm. Actually, one of the ones today was kind of like that too. Sort of an "oh, so they made their decision based on credentials rather than ability".
I feel slightly heartened by all that.
I was reading the advice column at Captain Awkward last week and in one of the comments sections, in reference to letter about a bad breakup, someone said "You don’t have to be perfect for a bad situation to be not your fault." I mean, it's not the same (I only dimly remember my last breakup), but there's some similarity. I've been spending a lot of time second-guessing myself, trying to figure out what I did wrong and if there was anything I could have done differently to keep my job. Sure, my job drove me crazy and I wanted out but it's still a blow to ego. Especially since I'd put my own job hunt on hold because of the LIS install (starts soon!). Loyalty really is only a one way street these days, I guess.
Oh, I know I didn't do anything wrong (mainly because these people were not shy about just firing others in the office so I'm sure if they'd had a reason to fire me they would have). But there's knowing it and knowing it. I'm still working on getting my subconscious to really know that, because it doesn't really. I put so much effort and, well, work into proving myself so this wouldn't happen again. I think that's why it's so hard to really wrap my head around it. How good I was at my job did not matter, at all. New management came in and didn't even wait until they'd been around long enough to make any sort of determination of skill on any of our parts.
And I was right in my prediction. Things have not been going great at my old job but all the overtime and stress fell onto only one of my ex-coworkers. My replacement (!, yes, she started a couple of weeks ago; they'd already hired her when they laid me off, announced them to everyone else at the same time) is new and was out last week getting the training I'd already had. One coworker has been in the hospital. And the other whines and whines if she ever has to stay more than 5 minutes past her normal end time. Poor guy even called me a couple of weeks ago (good lord, it hasn't quite been a month since I got laid off) asking me to help him out with some instrument issues. I gave him a couple of steps but told him I couldn't really help him. I wanted to help but ... I'm definitely not going to work for those people if I'm not going to get paid for it.
Oh, hey, they finally closed my email account. I'd wondered when that was going to happen.
I did get approved for unemployment starting this week, which is a bit of a load off my mind. I'm working on getting my own insurance since COBRA is insanely expensive but I could still fall back to it if I have to. Of course, if I do manage to get one of these contract positions then I could have gone with a slightly better plan than the cheap one I picked. No way to know that when I picked it out! And hopefully I won't need to be on it for long. Or perhaps I can switch to something else after a little bit or something.
I tried to go back and reread this to see how it flowed since I pretty much just babble-typed at you at various points throughout today and I kept going back and changing things and now I'm not even sure it's coherent. I'm tired and I want to post this so I hope it's not terrible!