House Arrest
Whoa when was the last time I was punished? I honestly dont remember. The sun was unbearable today and I dont know how the flesh that I call skin did not melt and pop like a liquid bubble on the outside steps of my household.
Back to being punished. Alot of us these days get the "you not responsible, friends and fun come before family....ect." Who are the ones promoting this? Our parents. I can understand the lack of family time. But my lack of my interest im my education is totally off. Whenever parents want you to do something they are going to test you in a way. For example. If I do not fully fix my problem with the unorganized Delgado there goes my car keys.
We all know that a car for a teen is A either very usefully and B wanted by many that dont have one. Even older adults find a car useful. I dont have to think twice to do what the parentals say. But the thing that gets me is I feel there is no respect from them towards me. maybe Im hard headed and really do have responsility issues. I try to clean my room regular. My room appears to be spotless most days if not its bc laundry is overpowering my bed area.
My goal is to show my parents that I am not a slacker. To better a vision of my mother. Ill give u a metaphor. If that is the right word but as I continue on..... To prove I can cook a chicken I must first find the chicken, catch it, pluck it and all in between then cook it and serve it for dinner. No goin to the store and cooking it might be making chicken but what would really make her know that I really kno how to cook the chicken is if I get from a farm or somewhere in the wilderness. This example may be way off. but you must know my mother to understand this whole story I am trying to share with you to see my situation. As she use to say in grammer school "I come from th streets....You think your life is hard I can show you hard. Get ahold of yourself I dont want to hear your whining."
If I know one thing its being tough. I dont want to dissappoint my mom. I feel i am on the right track. I know she is only wanting the very best for me and to push me to the max is her knowing that she has to to make me remember "This is your life, If you fuck it up its on you. You not alittle girl anymore."
So whoa house arrest here I am. i had a night that consisted of four walls my room. No distractions, no friends, just myself and dashboard. My futue is very important to me and I am ready to begin to make it realization. By the power of my determination and dedication it will all come true. Im not young anymore. If I need something I have the power to have it because I am responisable for everything and anything I want and need.
To set the record straight I am not ungreatful for my mother or anyone else in my family. I love them with all my heart. If they can only see that I really do have a level head on my shoulders. If I dont have alevel one I think I even it out pretty damn good. If I never get to please them then so be it. But I know that I can make myself happy.
Back to being punished. Alot of us these days get the "you not responsible, friends and fun come before family....ect." Who are the ones promoting this? Our parents. I can understand the lack of family time. But my lack of my interest im my education is totally off. Whenever parents want you to do something they are going to test you in a way. For example. If I do not fully fix my problem with the unorganized Delgado there goes my car keys.
We all know that a car for a teen is A either very usefully and B wanted by many that dont have one. Even older adults find a car useful. I dont have to think twice to do what the parentals say. But the thing that gets me is I feel there is no respect from them towards me. maybe Im hard headed and really do have responsility issues. I try to clean my room regular. My room appears to be spotless most days if not its bc laundry is overpowering my bed area.
My goal is to show my parents that I am not a slacker. To better a vision of my mother. Ill give u a metaphor. If that is the right word but as I continue on..... To prove I can cook a chicken I must first find the chicken, catch it, pluck it and all in between then cook it and serve it for dinner. No goin to the store and cooking it might be making chicken but what would really make her know that I really kno how to cook the chicken is if I get from a farm or somewhere in the wilderness. This example may be way off. but you must know my mother to understand this whole story I am trying to share with you to see my situation. As she use to say in grammer school "I come from th streets....You think your life is hard I can show you hard. Get ahold of yourself I dont want to hear your whining."
If I know one thing its being tough. I dont want to dissappoint my mom. I feel i am on the right track. I know she is only wanting the very best for me and to push me to the max is her knowing that she has to to make me remember "This is your life, If you fuck it up its on you. You not alittle girl anymore."
So whoa house arrest here I am. i had a night that consisted of four walls my room. No distractions, no friends, just myself and dashboard. My futue is very important to me and I am ready to begin to make it realization. By the power of my determination and dedication it will all come true. Im not young anymore. If I need something I have the power to have it because I am responisable for everything and anything I want and need.
To set the record straight I am not ungreatful for my mother or anyone else in my family. I love them with all my heart. If they can only see that I really do have a level head on my shoulders. If I dont have alevel one I think I even it out pretty damn good. If I never get to please them then so be it. But I know that I can make myself happy.