Oh you are so lovely!
I happen to enjoy this photo very much! I just found it searching the web but what ever. OK so there is this stupid bitch in the library right next to me talking on her cell phone really loudly about some stupid spring break trip that she is planning and it is so fuckin pathetic I want to blow her brains out! I really have a lot to say but I cant type all of it so you get what you get! I have been thinking so much latley and I really hate this not having anything to do thing. Sure the no school thing may sound so great to you, but its really isn't so fantastic after all. I mean sure it is better then haveing to interact with all of the stupid pieces of shit the go to school with you but truly it isnt all its cracked up to be. Work is not fun . I really have been going crazy latley. I have worked so much that whenever I'm not working I am so tired that I have no motivation to get any thing that I was really wanting to do when I was not in school done. I havent had much alone time and my family is really pulling my strings lately. I end up staying up until 3 or 4 just so I can have the house to myself and not have to answer any ones dumb questions and even carry a conversation with my family members. I want to get so much accomplished by the end of this semester and I just dont know how to get any motivation at all. I just turned in my application for the school that I want to go to and so it's a small load off but it still worries me so much because there is still a chance that I dont get in and I really want to.Its the only collage that I did vists to and have actually been really involved with, so if I dont get in I will most likely go postal on everyones asses and everyone that I despise will be dead on the floor! But I still am hoping for the best. I have a pretty big chance but we'll have to see. there for a while I thought that if I didnt get in I would just move to Kansas City or some were and live my lif out and then see what happens, but the more I think about it I hate the idea and it isnt part of my dream that I have worked so hard on achieving. I really want to go to collage I think that it is something that I personally couldnt live with out. It would be a experience to never forget and I dont give a shit what anyone has to say about that. If collage isnt for you I dont fucking care I want to go and it's something that is right for me so fuck off! Any who I dont really care if this is so long because you made the decision to read it and if you dont want to you dont have to so it's not my problem that you need to eat shit and die. I am really looking forward to getting out of here this weekend and taking a little breather from the stupid routine that I have shoved myself into. I think that it will be one to always remember. There really isnt anything other that I could ask for then spending time with the people I love the most and getting to see some of the most amazing bands perform. And yes I am rubbing it in your face because I get to go and you don't. I am done.
Your love,
Silicone Fetus