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It's now 6:09 AM California time. I have officially been awake for 30 hours, with no sleep in sight. I have read a 600-page book and I am about to start another one. I tried calling Chris, but his phone was getting bad reception and cut off, which makes me sad, because he was at his new place, which has no other phone line. Basically this means that it will be nearly impossible to talk to Chris on the phone. He also has no internet where he lives. I have virtually no way to talk to my husband any more. I don;t know when I'll get to see him again. I feel like I'm entering some kind of black hole. Can't visit, can't e-mail, can't IM, can't even phone. I'm back home but I feel so far away from everything...
My apartment is too quiet. I have the TV on, as usual, but it's not really helping. Even when I'm awake and Chris is asleep, as long as we're in the same room, I feel so much better. It's quiet, but not. But here I just feel alone. In two days I go back to my routine, which is getting busier by the day. I feel like a robot. I just want Chris to come home. I want this to be over with once and for all.
My apartment is too quiet. I have the TV on, as usual, but it's not really helping. Even when I'm awake and Chris is asleep, as long as we're in the same room, I feel so much better. It's quiet, but not. But here I just feel alone. In two days I go back to my routine, which is getting busier by the day. I feel like a robot. I just want Chris to come home. I want this to be over with once and for all.