Still alive and kicking. :)
When I first moved back to Vancouver the last time around a year ago, I was posting here fairly frequently. I fell out of that habit when I got working for a moving company and fell into a lifestyle of being a workaholic by day and typical beer drinking alcoholic mover at nights. This year I've taken a few breaks from the daily beer diet to clear my head and focus on a number of things that tend to get neglected when your whole life revolves around being on a truck or throwing back a six pack and/or smoking a joint to just numb out. Recently I've started running again and it feels GREAT! Trouble is that it's way too easy for me to spend a night drinking with the boss and coworkers and fall back into a routine which wastes way too much of my free time, energy and money drinking beer and doing nothing night after evening after free afternoon after day off. So, while I'm not struggling with stupid harder drugs as I was in the past, I'm still getting used to being active and... well more like my old self.
Another reason that I haven't been posting much here at all is because... I don't know who I'm posting for anymore. I don't read LJ very often because ... most of the people I have in my friend's list aren't very active parts of my life anymore. Actually, that's the case with a lot of the contacts I have on my computer. I feel that I'd spend more time corresponding with people online if I took the time to edit my contacts in various chats, blogs and email so that the people I'm tuning are people who live closer to me and whom I presently have more in common with and more to talk about with. I'm not avoiding old friends, just accepting that I am here and my life has taken such a turn that.... I can't think of much to say when I see old friends online. Those who were closest to me... communication stopped when or before I came back so.... *shrugs*
Why am I typing this? I don't know.... perhaps to vocalize what typing anything here means to me... just get it out there so that I have something concrete to focus on before I decide what energy, if any, I'm going to expend in order to get more out of my laptop and the social portal I use it for in future.
Another reason that I haven't been posting much here at all is because... I don't know who I'm posting for anymore. I don't read LJ very often because ... most of the people I have in my friend's list aren't very active parts of my life anymore. Actually, that's the case with a lot of the contacts I have on my computer. I feel that I'd spend more time corresponding with people online if I took the time to edit my contacts in various chats, blogs and email so that the people I'm tuning are people who live closer to me and whom I presently have more in common with and more to talk about with. I'm not avoiding old friends, just accepting that I am here and my life has taken such a turn that.... I can't think of much to say when I see old friends online. Those who were closest to me... communication stopped when or before I came back so.... *shrugs*
Why am I typing this? I don't know.... perhaps to vocalize what typing anything here means to me... just get it out there so that I have something concrete to focus on before I decide what energy, if any, I'm going to expend in order to get more out of my laptop and the social portal I use it for in future.