babbling. disregard.
as my life progresses, i feel like i've finally found my niche. these times haven't exactly been the best times..i've managed to survive yet another messy break up and i've lost a high school friend to suicide. but my friends and my family have been so good to me. every day, i'm reminded how lucky i am. things are starting to finally make sense. i've finally decided on a school and a career to pursue. i've decided not to settle for less anymore. i want nothing than the best for myself now. and as i've grown older and matured, i'm starting to realize what it is that i really want in life. i want nothing more than a man that makes me laugh, takes care of me and values my friends as much as i do. i can't wait to find someone to make me laugh for the rest of my life. i feel like if i found that, i would be completely satisfied. and i can't wait to find this man, settle down and start a family with him. i want a house and a job and i want to get kids ready for school in the morning. i want to drive kids to school in the morning and buy them clothes when i'm supposed to be out shopping for myself. i want to pack lunches. i want to live under a roof with a family that i started myself. i want the security of knowing that i have someone to fall asleep with every night. i hate sleeping alone. i used to think that i didn't want to bring children into a world with so much hate and confusion and with life being as hard as it is. but if my children are as lucky as i am, with supportive parents, great brothers and amazing friends, endless fun, love and opportunity, then i suppose it's really worth it. because anyone who has an even an ounce of the life that i have, they are blessed.