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wow i haven't updated in awhile. today sucked. im a loner...therefore i am a loser. and i am noticing it all now. well...i've known i am...but i am REALLY REALLY noticing it now. here goes it....
i am so fed up with freakin school! seriously. funny how DUMB things can ruin ur whole day. to start it off...my bros friend david, came over to where we were at this morning. and he's annoying as fuck. and a disgusting FAG! i hate that kid, cuz of something he said to me like 2 months ago. and he REALLY gets on my nerves. ok then...1st block. i have personal fitness. ok? ya and i know NO ONE in there and that makes me realize that i am a freakin loser. i mean since monday, i've had that class. and everyone's on the bleachers talkin to there friends and crap, and here is nancy, sitting all alone. no one to talk to. i feel like a fuckin loser and i hate it so much. all the friends i have made here have turned out to be bitchez and i lose them all...its like they all pretend to be my friend and crap. ya...as it is right now...nancy has no friends..sharleene doesnt hang out with me anymore. and at lunch today she comes up to me and was like "what do you want?" and i told her to go away. i didnt do crap to her so she doesnt have to be a bitch. like my mom said...i'm too nice, and i end up with loser friends. and she can't see why i don't have a lot cuz i am nice. its cuz im shy...and ya. i dunno. but i hate this. i wish i did have more friends and ones who actually care about my feelings and give a fuck. so ya, that made me pissy all day cuz i dunno anyone in there and for the past 3 days i've just been sittin there by myself. then french...that lady pisses me off just hearing her voice! then i got a pass to guidance 3rd block. cuz i wanna get outta personal fitness and take it next year. and she was all like "i dont like students taking it their senior year because its a class you need to graduate, and if you do have it next year it might take place of a class that you really like" and i really don't care right now. i just wanna be happy and i dont want that to screw with me. so im gonna go to her tomorrow and tell her i wanna switch out. cuz she told me to think about it and talk to her tomorrow. that way, i can go back into my food prep class and i know a couple people in there. ya....so from there on out, i was pissed off the rest of the day, and i came home pissed. and its funny how my parents dont notice....there always like, "how was ur day nancy?" and i always say good...half the time its a lie. all cuz of this...i hate school. thats the only reason i do hate it. cuz i have no real friends...and thats all i want. thats all i've ever wanted since i moved here. seriously, i've had so much trouble makin friends since i moved cuz im too shy and it sucks......... i dunno.. what is it about me that people dont like?? what is wrong with me??? tell me!! cuz obviously i dont see it....... i dont even know why i bother with life..
ta ((fuckin)) da
i am so fed up with freakin school! seriously. funny how DUMB things can ruin ur whole day. to start it off...my bros friend david, came over to where we were at this morning. and he's annoying as fuck. and a disgusting FAG! i hate that kid, cuz of something he said to me like 2 months ago. and he REALLY gets on my nerves. ok then...1st block. i have personal fitness. ok? ya and i know NO ONE in there and that makes me realize that i am a freakin loser. i mean since monday, i've had that class. and everyone's on the bleachers talkin to there friends and crap, and here is nancy, sitting all alone. no one to talk to. i feel like a fuckin loser and i hate it so much. all the friends i have made here have turned out to be bitchez and i lose them all...its like they all pretend to be my friend and crap. ya...as it is right now...nancy has no friends..sharleene doesnt hang out with me anymore. and at lunch today she comes up to me and was like "what do you want?" and i told her to go away. i didnt do crap to her so she doesnt have to be a bitch. like my mom said...i'm too nice, and i end up with loser friends. and she can't see why i don't have a lot cuz i am nice. its cuz im shy...and ya. i dunno. but i hate this. i wish i did have more friends and ones who actually care about my feelings and give a fuck. so ya, that made me pissy all day cuz i dunno anyone in there and for the past 3 days i've just been sittin there by myself. then french...that lady pisses me off just hearing her voice! then i got a pass to guidance 3rd block. cuz i wanna get outta personal fitness and take it next year. and she was all like "i dont like students taking it their senior year because its a class you need to graduate, and if you do have it next year it might take place of a class that you really like" and i really don't care right now. i just wanna be happy and i dont want that to screw with me. so im gonna go to her tomorrow and tell her i wanna switch out. cuz she told me to think about it and talk to her tomorrow. that way, i can go back into my food prep class and i know a couple people in there. ya....so from there on out, i was pissed off the rest of the day, and i came home pissed. and its funny how my parents dont notice....there always like, "how was ur day nancy?" and i always say good...half the time its a lie. all cuz of this...i hate school. thats the only reason i do hate it. cuz i have no real friends...and thats all i want. thats all i've ever wanted since i moved here. seriously, i've had so much trouble makin friends since i moved cuz im too shy and it sucks......... i dunno.. what is it about me that people dont like?? what is wrong with me??? tell me!! cuz obviously i dont see it....... i dont even know why i bother with life..
ta ((fuckin)) da