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I feel so used right now.
After all the shit he did me to me
and he has the nerve to block me
Ive never been used this much before.
I feel so.........horrible.
I cant believe he treated me that way.
I cant believe I let him.
I shouldve forgot about him when he first told me that I meant something to him,
and that she meant nothing...then that week fucked her anyway...and complained about visitng me. I shouldve let him go then.
But no.
Im dumb. Im dumb as shit
and brought him juice to help his UTI that he got from fucking her.
Then he uses me as a convienent place to stay while he's here...
but I pretend its cos he likes me.
But then he said he was going to show up...
but 8 hours later...wiht no phone call in between
he finally does
just to use me as a place to stay so he can talk to a group.
He tells me he's going to come see the speaker I spent all semester planning for...
again I pretend its cos he likes me.
But he changes his mind cos he doesnt like someone who's going to be there.
We dont talk....
but I forgive him, cos again Im dumb as shit.
He tells me that he really likes me, and how beautilful I am....all of the time.
I pretend he's telling the truth.
We decide we are officially boyfriend and girlfriend.
So I buy him an amazing gift for Hannukah, straight from the heart.
He takes it with happiness,
and then goes away to fuck the same girl he fucked before.....or maybe he fucked someone else....he wont really tell me....
instead he just blocks me.
when I thought he'd atleast call to explain himself, or apaologize...or pretend I exsist....
but apparently I dont.
I feel....angry, dissappointed, used, icky.
I have never been so used before.....
but now I know how it feels....
and let me tell you...
if I have ever used someone,
I will never again...
I wouldnt wish this feeling on my worst enemy.
and that says a lot.
So Josh, if you ever accidently read this, cos Im sure you wouldnt bother to read this on your own....I hope you realize the damage youve done.
And Thankyou Josh for teaching me how it feels to feel like you dont matter in the world anymore...and that soap scum means more than you do. I dont think anyone wouldve ever taught me how that feels better than you, so thanks.
After all the shit he did me to me
and he has the nerve to block me
Ive never been used this much before.
I feel so.........horrible.
I cant believe he treated me that way.
I cant believe I let him.
I shouldve forgot about him when he first told me that I meant something to him,
and that she meant nothing...then that week fucked her anyway...and complained about visitng me. I shouldve let him go then.
But no.
Im dumb. Im dumb as shit
and brought him juice to help his UTI that he got from fucking her.
Then he uses me as a convienent place to stay while he's here...
but I pretend its cos he likes me.
But then he said he was going to show up...
but 8 hours later...wiht no phone call in between
he finally does
just to use me as a place to stay so he can talk to a group.
He tells me he's going to come see the speaker I spent all semester planning for...
again I pretend its cos he likes me.
But he changes his mind cos he doesnt like someone who's going to be there.
We dont talk....
but I forgive him, cos again Im dumb as shit.
He tells me that he really likes me, and how beautilful I am....all of the time.
I pretend he's telling the truth.
We decide we are officially boyfriend and girlfriend.
So I buy him an amazing gift for Hannukah, straight from the heart.
He takes it with happiness,
and then goes away to fuck the same girl he fucked before.....or maybe he fucked someone else....he wont really tell me....
instead he just blocks me.
when I thought he'd atleast call to explain himself, or apaologize...or pretend I exsist....
but apparently I dont.
I feel....angry, dissappointed, used, icky.
I have never been so used before.....
but now I know how it feels....
and let me tell you...
if I have ever used someone,
I will never again...
I wouldnt wish this feeling on my worst enemy.
and that says a lot.
So Josh, if you ever accidently read this, cos Im sure you wouldnt bother to read this on your own....I hope you realize the damage youve done.
And Thankyou Josh for teaching me how it feels to feel like you dont matter in the world anymore...and that soap scum means more than you do. I dont think anyone wouldve ever taught me how that feels better than you, so thanks.