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Attention all you hot sexy men I am back in the game... ready to go lol It's sad but at the same time it was for the best. I fucked up really bad, really bad I don't think i've fucked up this bad. I blame it on myself that i am alone now. I just wish it wouldn't of ended so god damn shitty. I knew it was going to end cause the week went to shit. Last time right after, my week was wounderful, and this past week has been nothing but bad. But shit happens and you have to move on and i know it time i will be alright. I take this as a lesson learned, and the mistakes i have made won't happen again. My chest hurt a little bit but after you get a broken heart for the first time i don't think you can get it again. You may feel that your missing a part of it, but the first one is always the hardest when your whole chest is in pain and your crying and you can't catch your breath. I cried the whole way home on monday non stop, my girls even tried to cheer me up, got me some chocolate and i cried, went shopping and i cried, went home and i cried, went to sleep and i cried. There were some harsh words past last night, i know there not true but i'm sorry he feels that way towards me. I have been called that name a long time ago but never from someone i said i love you to. It hurt but not as much as i thought, i cried a little and then i was like wow i'm really not that hurt. But i'm just sorry it turned out like this, it sucks i still wanted to be friends.