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its been a while since my last update. too bad its not as happy as i want it to be. im stuck in a house where my parents dont greet me when they come home from work, and i have a ridiculous curfew that inconveniences my friends while we are hanging out. im sick of it. im nearly 20 years old and it almost seems like my little sister has more privileges than me. the only explanation i get from them is "i cant go to sleep if youre not home" or "i want to see you every day when i get home from work". how fuckin selfish can they be? not once have i come home drunk, drugged up, or beaten up. i havent given them a single excuse to be as strict as they are with me all the time. all i want is to see my girlfriend. thats all. is it too much to ask for my goddamn spring break to hang out with my friends for more than 3 consecutive days? i just wish i could give them a piece of my mind, but its hard to do when nobody wants to listen to you or when nobody is there to back you up. it almost makes me feel enraged to the point where id be satisfied if they didnt exist anymore. i want to be my own person, to be responsible for my own actions, and to be with the ones i really love. its painful when u know all your friends are hanging out one night and you cant go simply because you came home an hour later than u were supposed to. not to mention nobody talks to you while ur imprisoned in ur own house as well.
even more upsetting is that i get angry out of my house too. i dont mean to get quiet all the time or to take out any anger on anyone other than my "loving parents". im a good kid, and its a shame that everybody knows that except for the two people that should know that. i just need someone to get through to them and tell them that theyre being stupid, irrational, and unfair to me, because its not fair that they expect so much from me and give so little in return.
even more upsetting is that i get angry out of my house too. i dont mean to get quiet all the time or to take out any anger on anyone other than my "loving parents". im a good kid, and its a shame that everybody knows that except for the two people that should know that. i just need someone to get through to them and tell them that theyre being stupid, irrational, and unfair to me, because its not fair that they expect so much from me and give so little in return.