Far longer than forever...
I can't believe all this is finally happening. summers come to an end and now i have to say goodbye to jess and the rest of the seniors. it makes me so sad and i even cry about it but its the only way i can handle these drastic changes. i mean, the person i could talk to the most in the world about anything at anytime i wanted is leaving to start out on her own new life, while i sit back at home going about as normal. except it wont be normal. at all. there'll always be an empty spot at the table and an emptiness overall. i always thought it would be easy, but now that everythings changing around me im realizing that im not so strong a person. i feel like a whimp when i cry, and i really really hate when people stare at me and b like what the heck is she doing?? but idk i cant help it. i hope itll get better and its not like anybodies dying, but it is the end of something and like cindy says 'a new chapter of our lives is beginning.' man im gonna miss all you guys especially my yg seniors and im so glad i got close to u guys who've always looked out for me even when im being retarded. so yeah im leaving tomorrow with jess and sara to ohio to ship her off to college, even though i told mr friend i 'left this morning.' i really planned on going to band camp i even got my flute and crap and hopped in the car this morning. but then as jess was driving me i was like NOO I AM NOT GOING AND LEAVING JESS UNTIL I FREKAING HAVE TO. and so i didnt. maybe i feel a litttttle bad. nah. what i do feel is an itching on my leg. i think i ran into a funny bush at mikes house cause now theres bumps all on my leg that itch. woo i rock. well i wont tlk to neone until saturday night so faretheeallwell.