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hey wow talk about that should be islend of the broken hearted and too sensative, hell id prob be the only fucking person on that damn island! i hate how my life is! i mean one tiny lil thing cant create tears which intermix with my blood....i mean gawd! wtf is wrong with me! i just need to get my feet on fucking solid ground! its like the world is turning way to fast for me! and its not caring that im falling and rolling on broken glass from my shattered heart and soul!!!! i seriously think im built within the darkness and built with glass to shatter at any moment! meaning i cant handle shit! i mean gawd damnit! i hate this! i wish icould so change! be some one else! live a fucking diff life! not always be depressed and falling in love to fast with some one and falling out of it like never! i mean wtf its never real! LOVE DOESNT FUCKING EXIST IN MY LIFE!!!!!! but now im thinking i actually built this and its my prison! i actually think i did this to my self! i think some one purposely put me on this life to let every one make fun of me not give a fucking shit a bout me or anything!!! i feel like im wearing a fucking mask 24/7!!! and being some one im not! wtf is with this i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!!!! i mean im so falling for a guy named cory! but wtf am i suppossed to do about it! i mean gawd!!!!!!!!! i hate this! i mean i thought i was doing good! for not fucking crying! this week! but i was wrong!!! i cry too much i cut and slit my wrist too much i do everything bad too much and not enough good!!!!!! and i have came to the conclusion.....IM GOING NO WHERE IN THIS DAMN GAME CALLED LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She cuts herself just to watch the blood pour out
It takes away all her fear and doubt
With the stinging of the steal
Shes hoping her pain will heal with each cut, the reaper creaps closer
While time clicks closer to her last breath
But her soul has been dead for as long as she can remember
She just keeps the pain deep inside of her
So no one will know the truth about her and her life
She always thinks it would be good to go away
she knows the blood pouring out proves she is still alive
And deep inside her world of lies
She feels shes not really living this damn life
But just maybe if someone actually knew the truth and helped her
She wouldn’t already of been gone…