Game..
let me play a game with myself, a game that requires manipulation, misery, and a razor to my request, its my own pain staking game, its "God?", i have to see if he really wants me to live or does he not care, if i take that razor to my wrist, do you think he will come to save my worthless self? or will he let my continue to send thoughs negative bruetal words and phrases through my head, i have came to hate the person inside, everyday i find a war to bring upon me and myself, but does God know? does He even care? Why should i care about it? He doesnt exist within my life, He is a myth all around me, how do you manage to say He is so great when i cannot see that when i ask for him, does He hide away from me?, Hopefully this game will tell me everything from the inside out, my words are cold, i dont want you to see me play this game you will not understand me, you never did understand, this game is my future, am i leaving or am i going no where? ill put my life withthin this intoxicating mind, and psychical beating game to see where i stand in life and in God's eyes....
damn sorry im really depressed and shit...me and chris broke up i really liked him!!!!!!!and i was neglected and shit ugh! oh well i have already been asked out several times when i wasnt even single for 24 hours i find that hilarious for some reason i saw this awesome short video on funnyjunk.com well i found alot but umm the "old mean fols" (hilarious) "eerything is gay" "kitty cat dance" and "weee!" lol i love them! lol i crack up so much and people think im on something but im not!!
i guess it wasnt enough to take up some of my love... (i know i know Avril..i like all music chill peoples) lol
I feel so much better when im alone...
i am a poet writing of my pain,
i am a person living a life a shame,
i am your daughter hiding her depression,
i am your sister making a good impression,
i am your friend acting like im fine,
i am a wisher wishing this life wasnt mine,
i am a girl who thinks of suicide,
i am a teenager pushing her tears aside,
i am a student who doesnt have a clue,
i am the girl sitting next to you,
i am the one asking you to care,
i am your best friend hoping you'll be there...
(i didnt write that out of book)
byez i love yall....*sigh*
damn sorry im really depressed and shit...me and chris broke up i really liked him!!!!!!!and i was neglected and shit ugh! oh well i have already been asked out several times when i wasnt even single for 24 hours i find that hilarious for some reason i saw this awesome short video on funnyjunk.com well i found alot but umm the "old mean fols" (hilarious) "eerything is gay" "kitty cat dance" and "weee!" lol i love them! lol i crack up so much and people think im on something but im not!!
i guess it wasnt enough to take up some of my love... (i know i know Avril..i like all music chill peoples) lol
I feel so much better when im alone...
i am a poet writing of my pain,
i am a person living a life a shame,
i am your daughter hiding her depression,
i am your sister making a good impression,
i am your friend acting like im fine,
i am a wisher wishing this life wasnt mine,
i am a girl who thinks of suicide,
i am a teenager pushing her tears aside,
i am a student who doesnt have a clue,
i am the girl sitting next to you,
i am the one asking you to care,
i am your best friend hoping you'll be there...
(i didnt write that out of book)
byez i love yall....*sigh*