FFFUU
I haven't updated anything seriously for a while! Well most of my works are on the hold...until the Tiger and Bunny photoshoot is done.
WHICH IS TODAY...by the way! Today aaah.
^ GIF is very appropriate. So much shit happened few days prior that I go in a pattern of raging 'my groupmates can't understand/sympathize with my stress as they go trolalala around the webs' and me not going online for the evening to pack everything else. I have remarkable breakdowns during events orz
This does not help that it looks I packed a dead individual in my bag ._. I usually can fit overnight items in one small backpack...but gdi, the glorious things I need to pack for the barnaby outfit 8|
I WILL BE SO PISSED IF MY GROUPIES GO DIVA ON ME. THIS SHIT IS HEAVY.
for random drama: I have been getting messages from my former highschool batchmates who can't even spell my name. guys, you have known me and most of you have been my classmates for four years that shaped our teenage lives...seriously.
I also don't know why they think I'm happy with my life. Being single with no certain goal in life is not happy. I'm not in an in-demand job nor am I working abroad, nor am I happily married with children. I can't even afford to have my own car with my pay. I don't have a fiancee or a child I could brag about and to thank god everyday for. I'm doing things that I should have long stopped doing a decade ago.
So much for following my passion, I'm way behind everyone else.
Sometimes I think it's embarrassing what I do.
But I don't know :|
WHICH IS TODAY...by the way! Today aaah.
^ GIF is very appropriate. So much shit happened few days prior that I go in a pattern of raging 'my groupmates can't understand/sympathize with my stress as they go trolalala around the webs' and me not going online for the evening to pack everything else. I have remarkable breakdowns during events orz
This does not help that it looks I packed a dead individual in my bag ._. I usually can fit overnight items in one small backpack...but gdi, the glorious things I need to pack for the barnaby outfit 8|
I WILL BE SO PISSED IF MY GROUPIES GO DIVA ON ME. THIS SHIT IS HEAVY.
for random drama: I have been getting messages from my former highschool batchmates who can't even spell my name. guys, you have known me and most of you have been my classmates for four years that shaped our teenage lives...seriously.
I also don't know why they think I'm happy with my life. Being single with no certain goal in life is not happy. I'm not in an in-demand job nor am I working abroad, nor am I happily married with children. I can't even afford to have my own car with my pay. I don't have a fiancee or a child I could brag about and to thank god everyday for. I'm doing things that I should have long stopped doing a decade ago.
So much for following my passion, I'm way behind everyone else.
Sometimes I think it's embarrassing what I do.
But I don't know :|