Nov 06, 2016 17:37
You know, one thing I've been really struggling with for years is making time to do mail related things. I don't even know why it is so hard for me to reply to letters on time, it's not like I don't HAVE time. Sure, I'm busy with a lot of things, but I also spend a lot of time reading the paper or magazines or stuff like that, or watching series on Netflix. That time could just as well be spent writing letters or signing slams, which is something I actually enjoy more. It's quite embarrassing really, the pile of letters on my desk. Not so much the size of the pile, but the fact that some letters have been there for over a year. And the longer they sit there, the worse I feel about writing back, and the less likely I am to pick up my pen.
I also don't make time for drawing. I love drawing. But I never do it. I don't know why. It's the same mechanism as writing letters, really, I do HAVE time, I just don't use the time I have to do it. Instead I do things I enjoy less and that don't make me feel as good. I always feel like a slob when I spend too much time watching TV or reading magazines, but somehow I always end up doing that. Why don't I do the things I really enjoy? It's the biggest mystery of my life. Does anyone else have this problem?