My heart bleeds for the wounds You inflicted on me...
Today is my mothers first birthday since she died. God if you exist I still fucking hate you.. My life is now a daily struggle just to look after my pathetic father who has become crewl welfare sucking white trash himself, he does nothing to help with anything. Im trapped in the projects with dimming hope of any type of successful future. All my relatives hate me. I get no help anywhere for everything I deal with. I dont even get a single day off of work anymore, and I still have to take care of my father and do everything else. He did not even remember my mothers fucking birthday today. Do you know how hurt and angry that makes me! Do you even fucking care!? I hope you dont exist, i really do.. I hate you so much for how you have robbed me of a life of love and a comfortable home I spit in your fucking face. FUCK YOU GOD! You think id give up and die after all this shit, fuck you!
I will never ever forget that night in June, Pouring rain and thunder, on my knees in the Hospital Chapel. I cried to you to save my mothers life, I would have given you EVERYTHING! I had whole churches praying for her.. and you fucking stabbed me in the heart anyways, you diddnt give a fuck about the consequences when you murdered my mother and robbed me of the only person on this planet who ever gave a shit about me.. I will never forget those last moments of my mothers life, she cried tears of blood for me as she died there, my father screaming and crying on the floor holding her hand to his face. And being God you knew full well my entire life would unravel and collapse for it..
I will never serve you for that..
I will never ever forget that night in June, Pouring rain and thunder, on my knees in the Hospital Chapel. I cried to you to save my mothers life, I would have given you EVERYTHING! I had whole churches praying for her.. and you fucking stabbed me in the heart anyways, you diddnt give a fuck about the consequences when you murdered my mother and robbed me of the only person on this planet who ever gave a shit about me.. I will never forget those last moments of my mothers life, she cried tears of blood for me as she died there, my father screaming and crying on the floor holding her hand to his face. And being God you knew full well my entire life would unravel and collapse for it..
I will never serve you for that..