Second Chapter
In which there is a trip, a friend, a nap, and a love interest.
I'm in Dallas for two weeks for training. Just got in a few hours ago. Went out last night with Debs up to Jamie's house to have some drinks. I should have gone to bed, but I enjoy hanging out with those two. I drove, and Deb's was slightly crazy in the car. But she calmed down, till we drove back home, and we had one of "those" conversations. That makes two people in the last month that I've opened up to. Its disturbing me. I've let Jamie in pretty deep, and I'm not sure why. Maybe its just cause I'm starved for some kind of attention, that if someone shows interest I want to return the favor. Or maybe its me becoming more healthy, and finding out how to trust. But the knowledge that I'm sharing parts of myself that I don't even go into in here, and to find the words just tumbling from my mouth bespeaks something. Maybe its finally time. Is this growth then? I am absolutely terrified of all this. But, at the same time, its been a long time since my shoulders have felt this light.
Dallas texas huh? Yeah. Crazy. I'm really, alone down here. Here's hoping for more. Or, maybe, a present when I get back.
I'm in Dallas for two weeks for training. Just got in a few hours ago. Went out last night with Debs up to Jamie's house to have some drinks. I should have gone to bed, but I enjoy hanging out with those two. I drove, and Deb's was slightly crazy in the car. But she calmed down, till we drove back home, and we had one of "those" conversations. That makes two people in the last month that I've opened up to. Its disturbing me. I've let Jamie in pretty deep, and I'm not sure why. Maybe its just cause I'm starved for some kind of attention, that if someone shows interest I want to return the favor. Or maybe its me becoming more healthy, and finding out how to trust. But the knowledge that I'm sharing parts of myself that I don't even go into in here, and to find the words just tumbling from my mouth bespeaks something. Maybe its finally time. Is this growth then? I am absolutely terrified of all this. But, at the same time, its been a long time since my shoulders have felt this light.
Dallas texas huh? Yeah. Crazy. I'm really, alone down here. Here's hoping for more. Or, maybe, a present when I get back.