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So I dreamt last night. It was long and very involved. I can't say I like what I dreamnt, and I'm thinking about blowing my brains out because of it. They deserve it, they started it.
Anyways, I dreamnt of Rosemary. Some of you may know her, others don't. Many don't know the whole story, and I'm not going to start giving it here. So I dreamnt of Rosemary and my daughter Kat. It was a good dream. They both wanted back into my life and I let them. Some part of me obviously wants what they offered even knowing how fucked up a situation it would be. It was an overly happy dream. It had many good points. Lots of emotion and feeling behind it, which is very very strange. Haven't had a dream that vibrant in many a year. It scares me, to the core, that part of my mind would still trust her and long after her. I would love to see my possible daughter though, which also scares me. So much unresolved conflicts are sitting on that old relationship that it can't possibly not effect my life.
Ohh, and I had the dream where you go to school with no pants. It wasn't so bad actually. No embarrassment, and was quite proud actually. Lots of the people in my dream were asking why, but I get that often anyways. Why this, why that.
Anyways, I dreamnt of Rosemary. Some of you may know her, others don't. Many don't know the whole story, and I'm not going to start giving it here. So I dreamnt of Rosemary and my daughter Kat. It was a good dream. They both wanted back into my life and I let them. Some part of me obviously wants what they offered even knowing how fucked up a situation it would be. It was an overly happy dream. It had many good points. Lots of emotion and feeling behind it, which is very very strange. Haven't had a dream that vibrant in many a year. It scares me, to the core, that part of my mind would still trust her and long after her. I would love to see my possible daughter though, which also scares me. So much unresolved conflicts are sitting on that old relationship that it can't possibly not effect my life.
Ohh, and I had the dream where you go to school with no pants. It wasn't so bad actually. No embarrassment, and was quite proud actually. Lots of the people in my dream were asking why, but I get that often anyways. Why this, why that.