nobody around to talk to right now aside from lj :(

[silentmoondoggy]

what a fucked up/weird day. had a fucked up morning, strange how it feels when you're hit with something huge when under the impression everything is great. it really sucks how i was led to believe how the last month was a lie, but it felt like it was the best time we had in our relationship. i feel like i had an amazing time dating her, but not her outside voices. not heartbroken....but hurt. scott,mark, and i decided to take a trip to venice beach. ended up in santa monica and we met up with this guy named... hmmm, i'm tempted to say mike.. could be off. but so anyway he's one of the coolest fucking guys and he tagged along and we went to see the campus of smc (amazing college,area,roomies- life there will be specfuckingtacular) and so we went to venice beach and i had, for as short of a time as it was, my mind off all the problems that came up. but i suppose pain can't be escaped when my happiness is changed to tragedy.
i suppose life changes for better or for worse. but it's harder to let some things go... but it has to happen

she'll be happier this way, that's all that matters