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[silentmelody]

I could be cold?

I can’t produce any dignity to fit my persona.
I’m a weak selfish person.
I am me.
I am too self involved to realize what is going on around me.
I’m obsessive-compulsive.
I am invincible.
I am despicable. -

[I hate everything about you, why do I love you?]

I need adoration to feel anything.
I want to be loved so intensely.
I live in a children’s fantasy where I want to be treated as “Cute”
I still sleep with the light on.

[You’re still with me in my dreams]

all I keep thinking about is him, how he broke my heart.
Not in the conventional way, but in a deep love of friendship.
I thought I had found a soul-mate in friendship and received
Hate
Lies
Pain

I want my emotional freedom back. I don’t want to experience these kind of emotions, these bad things. I cannot deal with it.

I want only nice beautiful love around me always,

I am delusional without hope,
I want freedom.

[And he means everything to her.]