why does it feel like when the worlds walked out on you your friends have also too...
today i got up mom dragged me to church i jus dont like going anymore i never go and the one day she makes me i really really dont want to go so i got there sat with my friends boy do i miss dillon we never hang out anymore... yeah so ive been thinking i really dont know what i want in life the smallest things irritate me i cant stand it im literally falling apart nothing pleases me and my family doesnt help at all they just make my life 10 times worse i dont know whats wrong with me i have ultimate highs and then once after im actually happy for once its like i go to my ultimate lows like normal i hate it i just want to be normal and not have to deal with this and i dont want to have to do something stupid but i think about it all the time i just dont want to do it because then i wont know what my life wouldve really been like i hate contemplating and now i have to memorize the rest of my speech for tomorrow i feel like my best friend never wants to hang out anymore and i feel liek the worst friend ever to all my friends dont know whyi just do