Dec 28, 2006 23:17
….
Yesterday, we were talking on the phone (something I seldom do) and we discussed about the different aspirations Asian parents have for sons and daughters. “Boys are meant to be doctors,” you said. “And girls are suppose to marry them,” I snapped back.
It felt good. It’s been so long.
Somewhere in the jumbled mess of our explosive past sleeps a joy unparallel to any other I have felt. Our exploits span three lifetimes, 12 grades, four name changes, and many happy moments.
It was something we always kept to ourselves perhaps for the simple fact that no one else, except us, would understand it.
I sparingly talk about you and the “us” that was but never actualized. But if only words can do justice to how frequent thoughts of you grace my mind…
Maybe that’s why I fell for her. She reminded me of you.
I’m not ready.
Timing was never something on our side.
I’m sorry.