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Over the last couple of days I've been missing certain people a great deal. It's funny because I am fairly certain that I don't mean nearly as much to them as they mean to me, but it doesn't make letting go and walking away any easier. I am still very much in love with someone I dated while at UD. . . I've been trying to move on for awhile, but he still pops into my head every morning and invades my dreams at night. I feel like a failure. . . like that relationship was the one thing that I should NOT have let fall to pieces. . . but I did. . . I let everything fall to pieces. . . So, now I sit here rambling. . . not doing anything about it. . . mostly because I really don't know what I should do. . . You are a brat who has no idea how much of a hold he still has on my heart. . . I've got to go study. . . or should I say attempt to study. . . I know I can't concentrate. . . maybe I'll write a letter. . . that will do. . . peace