Word from the Subconscious

[silentapologies]

I am surrounded by superficiality, if that's even a word. I like to think that there was some substance in my life that made me different than the average giggly, carefree high school girl. But today I realized I am that girl. I could try to deny it, argue that I'm not like that all the time, but it is my choice to be how I am at school, with my friends. There used to be a few people, at least a solid three, with whom I could be who I thought I really was. But now I find myself acting with them, also. The only person who has any idea what I'm truly like now, without the makeup and pink clothes and white smile and girly, giggling voice is....me.

And that, in all reality, is the saddest aspect of my life.

[Insert fake, high-pitched giggle here.]