it's just a bad mood. promise.
i'm in a really bad mood. i figure not too many people read this, and i wanna get it all out.
i just don't feel like myself. i feel like i'm changing, and not for the better. i feel like i don't care about my friends, just my boyfriend and that i'm growing more and more easy to hate day by day. ok there. i said it.
it doesn't matter how tight the string ties because it can still come undone, right? friendships come and go, relationships come and go, and people change. it just so happens that when people think they have all the answers, it's very possible that they don't. yet, it's hard not to make assumptions.
and i am really upset about the play. not because i got a small part...in fact, it would've been worse if i had gotten a part at all. my cousin's bar mitzvah in boston's the same day and i can't exactly miss it. as much as the play is of importance to me, in the longrun, if i don't go to the bar mitzvah, there will be a handful of unhappy relatives. i'm only doing the friday night show, which is better than nothing, but still disappointing beyond belief.
i'm really spiteful at the moment. i'm not really in a friendly mood. not even a little bit.
my braces are gone, though. that's fun. let me tell you, it is by far the most relieving feeling known to my physical body in all of its existance up to now. i am also leaving the country in a mere 4 days!!! muy exciting. it's going to be really fun.
***i'm not really sure what possessed me to write this entry. i never use this thing. i'll most likely delete it tomorrow-ish.
i just don't feel like myself. i feel like i'm changing, and not for the better. i feel like i don't care about my friends, just my boyfriend and that i'm growing more and more easy to hate day by day. ok there. i said it.
it doesn't matter how tight the string ties because it can still come undone, right? friendships come and go, relationships come and go, and people change. it just so happens that when people think they have all the answers, it's very possible that they don't. yet, it's hard not to make assumptions.
and i am really upset about the play. not because i got a small part...in fact, it would've been worse if i had gotten a part at all. my cousin's bar mitzvah in boston's the same day and i can't exactly miss it. as much as the play is of importance to me, in the longrun, if i don't go to the bar mitzvah, there will be a handful of unhappy relatives. i'm only doing the friday night show, which is better than nothing, but still disappointing beyond belief.
i'm really spiteful at the moment. i'm not really in a friendly mood. not even a little bit.
my braces are gone, though. that's fun. let me tell you, it is by far the most relieving feeling known to my physical body in all of its existance up to now. i am also leaving the country in a mere 4 days!!! muy exciting. it's going to be really fun.
***i'm not really sure what possessed me to write this entry. i never use this thing. i'll most likely delete it tomorrow-ish.