you abandoned me...
what a long day i had..gettin beat up by a two year old in a preschool and knowing you cant do anything about it like HIT HER BACK! like wise sucks major whootang but its okay...knowing she could of almost sprained my wrist plus she gave me bruises is just beauitful....neways though i talked to adam...which was a good thing like ive said before we arent together anymore we are just friends...i dont know if things could ever go back to the way they once were honestly...i want to pretend nothing never happened but talking to him is like talking to him at the beginning when we were just friends..hmm..what have i done? what is this mess of mine ive made that i seem to not be able to clean up i hate things the way they are with us..its so wierd talking to him..i swear it feels like we are just nothing but friends...i love him like he said im confused n he believes he needs to give me my space so i can have some room to breathe to think things over alone this time without him pushing me to be with him...so i guess thats what imma do but i want him to always keep in mind no matter what i will always love him. how do i go on knowing..i did this to myself...