Back at school
So, I'm back at school. But I'm really wishing that I was still at home. I want to go home already; I miss it. I miss my friends and my family and my home. This is the first time I'm living back in the dorms in a year. It's a little strange, but I think I'll get used to it soon. I'm glad I'm living with my friends this semester; that should make my life a little easier.
My computer died shortly after I got back to campus because my brother burned out yet another power cord. But my new roomie A. Wilso came to the rescue. She had a Dell charger that she doesn't use anymore because her Dell died. :( So, she's letting me use it until I can find mine (because it went missing, which is why I had to take my brother's in the first place) or get a new one. So, right now, Allison is officially my hero. ^.^
So, over the last couple of weeks, I've noticed something. I am lonely. And not just lonely, but very lonely. It's beyond just being alone; it's more of an emotional thing than it is a physical one. I'm fine when I'm around people who care about me. But when I'm alone physically, it's like a weight on my chest and in my brain. It makes me want to cry. I don't really understand it, it's just there. I feel like I need a hug, but I also feel that I could be embraced by someone that I love for hours and the loneliness would still return once I am alone. I don't like this feeling and I don't know what to make of it, which is very unsettling.
My computer died shortly after I got back to campus because my brother burned out yet another power cord. But my new roomie A. Wilso came to the rescue. She had a Dell charger that she doesn't use anymore because her Dell died. :( So, she's letting me use it until I can find mine (because it went missing, which is why I had to take my brother's in the first place) or get a new one. So, right now, Allison is officially my hero. ^.^
So, over the last couple of weeks, I've noticed something. I am lonely. And not just lonely, but very lonely. It's beyond just being alone; it's more of an emotional thing than it is a physical one. I'm fine when I'm around people who care about me. But when I'm alone physically, it's like a weight on my chest and in my brain. It makes me want to cry. I don't really understand it, it's just there. I feel like I need a hug, but I also feel that I could be embraced by someone that I love for hours and the loneliness would still return once I am alone. I don't like this feeling and I don't know what to make of it, which is very unsettling.