Life
Life can be beautiful.
I've learned so much this semester. Before, I thought I would be sitting here writing about how much college has changed me, but now I realize that's not the case. College is letting me find myself. I'm not quite discovered, but I'm closer now than I've ever been. This is where I belong. Here, I've gained weight, but have come to see some beauty in me despite that. I've learned to love complete strangers and have still managed not to develop hate. I've realized how completely insignificant I am, and also how potentially significant I can be on a much more broken down level. I have stressed myself out so much, but have let myself have just as much fun. I still put too much on my plate, but that's just how I work. My life is being used and that's what makes me content. I've become very grateful for all I have.
I still have so much to think about, all the stuff that's been swimming in my head, but that can rest for now. I've checked out some good books, have made some tea with honey, and have put on some good music. I'm happy.
And despite all there is in this world that devalues it, I think there's more than enough to keep it precious.
My History at Play professor, Paul Sullivan, is the most amazing man I have ever met. He is so amazing, you couldn't really know the extent of it until you've had him as a teacher. My friend described him as a real life Dumbledore. Yes that's how incredible he is. He knows everything that matters in life, and has made me look at people in such a brighter light. Just the fact that he exists makes me happier. But he's possibly retiring, and that thought's depressing as hell. I just keep hanging on to the hope that he won't, because I know that I'm going to want his guidance for atleast the next 3 1/2 years. Today was the last class day and he gave us each a book mark that he had printed out with a wonderful quote on it:
"May we see that we could have been born as each other. May we, in short, believe in humane logic and perhaps, in due course, in love."
-Vikram Seth