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So things haven't been the greatest recently. I haven't slept in six nights so far, pretty much haven't slept since I last went to the doctor. I doze and then wake up coughing over and over again all freakin night. So I haven't been the nicest to people latley. Elena and Sergey included. I feel really bad because I really ruined whatever happiness sergey found in his day today. I'd been having a rather poor day today and things haven't been going my way for a while and so in history I just started crying. I don't usually cry, rather I try to stop myself whenever I do but Ic ouldn't stop. Tears just kept rolling down my face. I was suprised no one noticed but then again it is a ver opinionated class and I kinda hide inthe background. Then when I was walking home I kept crying and I just couldn't stop. Then I say Sergey walking and stopped crying and gave him a hug. Just seeing him really makes my day. Sergey and I have seen better days but still somehow, even though I ruined his day he made mine a little better. The whole day I was looking forward to seeing Sergey but especially the last half. I just want to go home and sit with him close together and just be next to him because I knew he would make everything better. So pretty much I ruined his day and made mine a little better. I am so selfish. I can't say I am very happy with what I did after I took him home but lets skip that. At five thirty I met with a college professor at starbucks on Edmonds way. I spoke to him for two and a half hours! It was an interview for school but I got so much out of it. I can't say we spent much time talking about the questionsoff the interview. Most of it was conversations about college, what's good and bad, who he could get me connected with, how hard or easy it can be, his opinions etc. I also listen to him talk a lot about what he teachs and researches. This ranges from Biology and chemistry to mechanics and cells and physics. He is so well learned from the science perspective I could listen to him lecture all day. Aparently he is researching how to reconnect nerve cells. When they are seperated they tend to recoil and the one giving hte information that end goes back inside and heals over while the recieving cell dies in the course of 48 hours. In Molusks (slugs) him and his fellow researchers have been able to get the cells to re connect but they are a logn way from doing it in people. He is researching this because several of his relatives had degenerative diseases that included nerves and cell receptors like altheimers, parkensans disease, etc. He teaches and researches and is very into both. he is so passionate about science and he knows so much. He has a Ph. D in a couple areas of science. He is certified to teach many kinds of science, many of which I had never even thought of or heard of. I wish I was as well learned as him. He has so much background in science and such a passion for it. So pretty much lots of coffee and chit chat later I got an interview done and got home around 8pm.
So hopefully I shall get some sleep tonight and get my homework done and manage my emotions. I think I shall blame my bad day on my new birth control. Playing with hormones is not always fun. And perhaps my cough will go away some day. My cough suppresent isn't working and my allergy medicine isn't either, hmm doc, you think it's still allergies?
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So hopefully I shall get some sleep tonight and get my homework done and manage my emotions. I think I shall blame my bad day on my new birth control. Playing with hormones is not always fun. And perhaps my cough will go away some day. My cough suppresent isn't working and my allergy medicine isn't either, hmm doc, you think it's still allergies?
tat for now!