tell me all these miles were for something

[silent_lament]

i don't know if i can keep doing this.
i hate pretending to be the strong one.
i'm not.

and i really wish i was.
because when it's good it's wonderful.
but when it's bad i'm miserable.

wow.
selfishness.

but i'm never going to turn into
the ones that came before me.
not ever.

i need to not get so worked up.
it's stupid of me.
and not fair to him.

i'm a terrible person.