Quick Update
Christmas eve. Woo. Not working though,a nd that IS a WOO!
I drove to fort Scott yesterday morning. Got up at 6 and hauled butt down there through some freezing rain. Suprised the hell out of my mom. My brother always stops in for coffee in the morning, so i walked in and said "Is the coffee on?" and my mom about had a heart attack :) we hung out for a bit then went down to see Grandma. Her output is still nil, and her blood pressure is almost unreadable and her breathing is very shallow... but she ate really well on Monday night (after not eating for two days. I maintain that she just really wanted peaches, dammit.) When I got there, I got her to open her eyes and she was holding (and squeezing.. hell does that woman still have a grip!) my hand. I was able to get a few minutes of privacy with her, in which I did what I set out to do -- I thanked her for my family, and for finding me and choosing me. She smiled :) I found out later that on Monday my mom had done the same thing-- thanking her for me. Now I feel like I've really told her what needed to be said.
We're going down tomorrow afternoon for presents with my family, and I'm taking her some new pictures for her cork board. The end is still coming, her vitals are still slipping... but she has those moments of alertness where we know she knows we're there, and that we love her... and that's the most important thing.
For everyone else-- I hope you all have a wonderful holiday. be safe, stay sane.
I drove to fort Scott yesterday morning. Got up at 6 and hauled butt down there through some freezing rain. Suprised the hell out of my mom. My brother always stops in for coffee in the morning, so i walked in and said "Is the coffee on?" and my mom about had a heart attack :) we hung out for a bit then went down to see Grandma. Her output is still nil, and her blood pressure is almost unreadable and her breathing is very shallow... but she ate really well on Monday night (after not eating for two days. I maintain that she just really wanted peaches, dammit.) When I got there, I got her to open her eyes and she was holding (and squeezing.. hell does that woman still have a grip!) my hand. I was able to get a few minutes of privacy with her, in which I did what I set out to do -- I thanked her for my family, and for finding me and choosing me. She smiled :) I found out later that on Monday my mom had done the same thing-- thanking her for me. Now I feel like I've really told her what needed to be said.
We're going down tomorrow afternoon for presents with my family, and I'm taking her some new pictures for her cork board. The end is still coming, her vitals are still slipping... but she has those moments of alertness where we know she knows we're there, and that we love her... and that's the most important thing.
For everyone else-- I hope you all have a wonderful holiday. be safe, stay sane.