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Not entirely sure what I'm planning to write here, to be honest. That I'm failing life? Well, I am. I have no motivation to do anything. I never feel like doing uni work. And I can't join in here enough. Why did I say that I'd stay? Why didn't I go home tonight? Did I really think that I'd change and be able to talk to people? I can't. I can't talk to people. I'm too shy. Why don't my parents understand this? They just say to go and talk to people. Go and join in. Make friends. You'll have fun at this party. I'M NOT. How is everyone else so confident and can just join in? Why can't I be like that? Instead of just sitting here alone. I was there for 5 minutes. If that. I just can't go up to people and talk to them. My parents made me buy her a present just because her party's in the same flat that I'm living in. I don't know her well. Such a waste of money. Not that it was too much, but all money is some money, especially when you're a student. WHY AM I LIKE THIS. Why can't I be normal?!
Why do I bother with life?
Why do I bother with life?