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heyy guys & dolls,
this isin't going to be a long post,but i just wanted to give a quick update.everythings peachy...kind of.i'm getting to the point where i'm realizing what it takes to involve yourself emotionally in a person,and the effects of it getting fucked up.i hate it.more than you know.i seriously am getting to the point where i just don't want to put myself in that situation and bother with dealing with it.i'm not in that great of a mood.i wish i could just get my life back to the way i was a few months ago.i was with him , and things were going great because of him. & moving on from him is so much harder then i could've ever imagined.i am really honestly trying to get to the point where atleast i can say i don't need him , but no matter how i try to do that , it just doesn't work out that way.ever since he left he took a part of me,which was a big part of me,don't get me wrong,but as time went on & i missed him more,he kept taking more and more.how that's possible i have no idea.i fucked things up.i was the one who was the cause of everything ending.i could have prevented the shit that happened if i had realized what i had and ran with it.but, no, me back then cared about everyone else's opinion and pretty much what they thought was good for me,my mind processed as right.it kills me knowing how i am now, not giving a shit about what anybody says.i never did on the outside,but on the inside,it tore me up.i am so so so past that now.thank goodness.i'm sorry for rambling on and on about this,but it just needed to get out.ugh.anyways,me and my depressed shit will go now,lol.alright.
on a little bit of a better note,i love my friends.so much.& you know who you are.kane,dickerson,mazzella,gelpi,pino,sarlo,estevez . i really wouldn't make it without you guys with me everyday. =] i love you guys so so so so much.
i'm finished.
always,
miss.crissy