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I wish I could go back into that dream that I had last night.
I felt myself smiling in my sleep, safe in the knowledge that everything in my life was perfect and I would always be happy.
And then I woke up and cried, because it's so different.
I really really miss being in love, and having friends, and being unemployed. Not that things are really that horrible now, i just keep getting this feeling that my life is worthless and I'm going nowhere. That dream just kind of rubbed in my face the real way that things are.
So I'm going to eat too much food, lie on my couch and go to bed at nine thirty. Sleeping and working distract me. Sitting there makes me remember all the things that I mentioned before. But if that dream comes back I'm going to try to never wake up so that I can live that life instead.
I felt myself smiling in my sleep, safe in the knowledge that everything in my life was perfect and I would always be happy.
And then I woke up and cried, because it's so different.
I really really miss being in love, and having friends, and being unemployed. Not that things are really that horrible now, i just keep getting this feeling that my life is worthless and I'm going nowhere. That dream just kind of rubbed in my face the real way that things are.
So I'm going to eat too much food, lie on my couch and go to bed at nine thirty. Sleeping and working distract me. Sitting there makes me remember all the things that I mentioned before. But if that dream comes back I'm going to try to never wake up so that I can live that life instead.