Update Time
Dad's plant is going to one shift in April, and they're cutting 2,000 jobs. He's pretty sure he won't get cut, but he will take a buy-out if they offer them. I know we'll get by no matter what happens, but it's still worrying, especially since our health insurance keeps changing. And I feel bad for my dad having to deal with all of this. :-(
Um, in happier news, I'm completely turning my life around. Seriously. I think the Zoloft is the main reason I'm a happy person now, but I took the extra push of motivation it gave me and am using it to change things. I'm putting myself first now--not school, not worrying about everyone else and everything else... just me. Because when I am healthy, all the rest of those things fall into place and I can deal with them as they come.
I've been taking inspiration from lucretia_lenore's lists and starting making self-improvement lists of my own. I'm not great at sticking to them (exercising every day is not working out), but the things I have been able to stick to are working for me. I do a relaxation exercise every day--usually progressive muscle relaxation followed by meditation. It's amazing how much looser my muscles are when I practice deep relaxation. I should have started this years ago. I'm devoting more time to spirituality too, which is making me much more comfortable with my life, and it's fun! I need fun.
Speaking of fun, or lack of it, one thing I've noticed this past week is that I'm bored. I don't do anything outside of schoolwork, LiveJournal, and watching TV. I'm not sure what to do to fix that, but I'm looking into it. I need something to distract me from the mountain of papers I have to write, so I don't grow to hate them. Unfortunately all of my clubs kind of dissolved this year, so I have no reason to leave my room and see people anymore.
I scheduled last week, and it went so well I didn't even feel the need to blog about it! I'm taking LGBT studies, which is being offered for the first time ever at this school, and I'm really excited about it. I'm also taking astronomy for my last science credit, English Language, and Writing for Young Audiences. I think it's going to be a good quarter!
Um, in happier news, I'm completely turning my life around. Seriously. I think the Zoloft is the main reason I'm a happy person now, but I took the extra push of motivation it gave me and am using it to change things. I'm putting myself first now--not school, not worrying about everyone else and everything else... just me. Because when I am healthy, all the rest of those things fall into place and I can deal with them as they come.
I've been taking inspiration from lucretia_lenore's lists and starting making self-improvement lists of my own. I'm not great at sticking to them (exercising every day is not working out), but the things I have been able to stick to are working for me. I do a relaxation exercise every day--usually progressive muscle relaxation followed by meditation. It's amazing how much looser my muscles are when I practice deep relaxation. I should have started this years ago. I'm devoting more time to spirituality too, which is making me much more comfortable with my life, and it's fun! I need fun.
Speaking of fun, or lack of it, one thing I've noticed this past week is that I'm bored. I don't do anything outside of schoolwork, LiveJournal, and watching TV. I'm not sure what to do to fix that, but I'm looking into it. I need something to distract me from the mountain of papers I have to write, so I don't grow to hate them. Unfortunately all of my clubs kind of dissolved this year, so I have no reason to leave my room and see people anymore.
I scheduled last week, and it went so well I didn't even feel the need to blog about it! I'm taking LGBT studies, which is being offered for the first time ever at this school, and I'm really excited about it. I'm also taking astronomy for my last science credit, English Language, and Writing for Young Audiences. I think it's going to be a good quarter!