Don't put your guards down and don't let the seagulls fool you
Today's morning seemed to be promising. I woke up with no nightmares.
My head was clear. I felt as a person who had been on the bed-rest for ages & now, he was allowed to stand up...and stand up on his own feet.
I was in a good mood (not maniac), I listened to Glass Skin over and over & enjoyed my big mug of tea on the balcony. I even finished ( Read more... )
My head was clear. I felt as a person who had been on the bed-rest for ages & now, he was allowed to stand up...and stand up on his own feet.
I was in a good mood (not maniac), I listened to Glass Skin over and over & enjoyed my big mug of tea on the balcony. I even finished ( Read more... )
next time you're having an appointment with your psychiatrist you should tell him what happened. You should not feel ashamed; when you're a victim, shame is the first progression after suffering a trauma. It's just the wrong way our mind works when we're victim and how society taught us wrong to react to this types of events and to blame it on ourselves first like we were the initial cause it happened (and subconsciously, that we deserved to be punished...). You suffered serious trauma and you have to talk about it. Especially to your psychiatrist.
...don't think you're the blame that this happened to you. i saw you mentioning that things like this happened before and horrible things happened also - that doesn't mean you deserve them!
...oh, sweetie...*takes you in my arms* you have no idea how grateful I am that you're ok (in the long run i mean...-man...i didn't even thought i will be given to witness such an entry from one of my LJ friends)...this is one type of experience no one should experience...
i don't know what else to say to be truly helpful...
talk to your psychiatrist.
we all love you here. we wish you to be as strong as you can be right now. no one deserves what happened to you today...
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