Three drunken nights
Title: Three drunken nights
Genre: broken pieces
Rating: harmless
Written for dxs triangle drabble challenge , theme #19
( 4000 rainy nights with you )
Genre: broken pieces
Rating: harmless
Written for dxs triangle drabble challenge , theme #19
( 4000 rainy nights with you )
I never thought about you you were acting ass-kissing :) On the contrary, almost: you act older than you are. I use to say that I require three things from people around me: be interesting in some way, be smart and have sense of humor. Lucky me: I got you.
Somehow, you manage to "sense" what I am trying to express with my writing. Maybe you remember, maybe you don't: on my old LJ, there was a story, I guess it was...4000 rainy nights. And there was a part which repeated itself, and you wrote to me: "It's like a song. Like a refrain to some song." That was it. I was aware that I had something on my mind when I was writing on that story, yet I was not sure what it was. And you told me. You showed me.
I am sorry that you feel stressed lately. I've been put under stress for nearly 2 years until my body and mind couldn't take it anymore and I collapsed. Some people might laugh at this and consider it being some lame excuse for laziness or whatever. But it is not.
You know, when I was picking up the theme I wanted to write, I saw "drunken nights" and I was like "omg,what the hell am I supposed to write here?! This is no booze advertisement!" But then...I just sit in the garden. I took a few deep breaths, I could smell the mint shampoo on my hair...I listened to some music...and then, I told myself: okay, now write what you feel right now.
I was...angsty, I suppose. But when writing on this story, I calmed down. And I am only happy to hear that it had similar effects on someone else, too.
Once again...thank you. You made me very happy.
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People tell me I've always tended to act older than my age. (Academically and mentally.)
I've realized that I'm very in tuned to the things around me. Empathic almost I guess. My psychiatrist said I could be an indigo child (didn't know what she was talking about at the time but I researched it, and maybe I am, who knows).
I do remember that. (Maybe not clearly right now but I do remember.)
I know. It's most definitely not. I've struggled through downhill snowballing depression for three years and for three years before that almost numb auto-pilot surviving. I've tried to be a hero, a victim, a clown, a parent, a lost child, and now I feel like I'm trying on scapegoat.
I'm sorry you were stressed for 2 years.
Laziness and other habits a person develops when stressed are acquired as a self preservation/defense mechanism. If you're lazy you aren't required to deal with some things and so it shallowly fixes the problem for only a short amount of time.
Sometimes I think to the people who are like that "Just you try feeling what I'm feeling, and have been feeling, for only a day and you'll go mad."
It reminds me of that phrase "Never judge a man until you've walked two moons in their moccasins." Have you ever heard something like that before?
...It's funny but like you said I could "sense" that leftover angstiness too. I just didn't know how to explain it in words.
:)
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