Le chat
Title: Le chat
Author: serena_blaire listening to ghosts whispering in her memory
Genre: broken pieces
Rating: harmless
…pro Tebe. A pro ni.
( ...memories... )
Author: serena_blaire listening to ghosts whispering in her memory
Genre: broken pieces
Rating: harmless
…pro Tebe. A pro ni.
( ...memories... )
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(Also, may I ask you why you are disabling comments in dxs_love? o.o' I find it a little... weird, to say, because doesn't every writer want comments?)
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Well.Well.
I know why you think it's weird. But I am afraid I don't think I take comments well. Especially when they're too...shallow.Superficial?
When I firstly posted to deg_yaoi or dxs_love,I became too adicted to comments.I wrote because of comments and not because of myself,of my writing.
But I couldn't cope with "awww,that's cute" or "how sweet!" comments.Not after I've put out so much of myself into my stories. It took away my ability to write,I couldn't find the reason to write.
I know the readers meant it well.Perhaps.But it is me, my sick and weird mind that couldn't deal with it.
I'd only hope you'd understand.
If disabling comments is not fine in a comm, please tell me.It's fine.
But...right now,in my current state of mental condition...I cannot deal with comments like this.
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And I know about the feeling when comments feel too shallow and superficial. But, that's what most people are willing to write, just something short to show that they've read the fic. But I am afraid I have been spoiled by the Finnish fandom - we used to (maybe still do, I haven't been active in any of my Finnish fandoms for so long) get comments with actual content in them, so they were longer and more thought-out than your avarage 'cute' comment, and that was something I loved and what gave me the energy to continue writing (faster, I mean, I'll still write, probably as long as I can hold a pen in my fingers xD) and all that. So yeah, I got spoiled there and loved every minute of it. :D
Anyway.
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You know,Mely,sometimes I wish I'd joined j-rock fandom way earlier than I did.I'd wish I was here in 2003,2004...somehow,the early 2000' seem the best to me.
The fanfiction was best 2006-2008,I'd say.Hundreds of good stories were written around then.Too bad I did not write any back then :D
Today,some authors still do a splendid job and write great stories.But there are so few of them and sometimes,when I look at deg_yaoi and read some stories being posted there...long live archives and my HD where I keep my most beloved fics.Otherwise I wouldn't have anything to read.
I don't want to hear praise or empty "cute" words. *Thanks to deg_yaoi,I've become heavily allergic to this word :) bad and spoiled me.* I want to hear what I managed and what I didn't.Is this spoiled much? Well,let it be so.
...that was something I loved and what gave me the energy to continue ( ... )
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hmm... we have slightly clouded, quite humid Sunday afternoon here.
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somehow they are very warm aren't they? :)
Thank you for everything you said yesterday and what you are doing today.
and thank you so much for this. i read it yesterday in a community and couldn't comment and it's... i loved it doesn't even describe. it is indeed different, shinya reads different, but not really, not really. they're the same die and shinya and "die and shinya together" and they work so well. they always did. i loved die looking at the neighbor's boobs and i loved the maliciousness with which shinya notes the absence of a bra. that was so natural. and their intimate moments too. there's always something languid and slow between them but also a lot of desperateness and i love both
heh, i love how you write. always did
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