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This pisses me off. I have NO friends. Seiya is fucking I don't know where. I can't hang out with Shitsuren. Her and I have become so close again. Like when we were friends the first time. And her mom won't allow me to see her! What the fuck is wrong with this? Remember how I am always saying "I'm meant to be alone"? IT'S HAPPENING! My worst fear ever...to be alone. No Sean. No my old friends. No Beth. No Seiya. No Shitsuren. Of all these people...at least let me keep Seiya and Shitsuren!!!! Why does it have to be this way? Am I cursed? Karma? What have I done so wrong to deserve this? GRRRRR!!!!! I don't know what to do. How to react. What to say. Do I feel sorry for myself becaus I'm alone? Do I get mad and just end all my friendships? Try casting a spell? I've tried to find more friends. Failed. Get back with old friends. Never(except Shitsuren). Convincing myself I'm better off alone. Suicidal thoughts. Nothing I've tried works. I have Kitsune, but she is limited on things she can do. And that is difficult since I like to get outside and do stuff. She's more into video games. -_- What to do...? This is so fucked up! I can't accept this. I won't. What the fuck ever. I don't care anymore. I will live alone and die alone. Maybe it is supposed to be this way. I will be fine. Fuck you all. I'm better off alone.