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Ali was right... How can people be so blind... why cant they see that when you say your fine your really not... and even if u tell them how u truely do feel they tell you to get some "help" or spend time in a "hospital" or tell you that you're morbid... blehg... I feel so sick... yet psychotic... heh... I've just spent a hour laughing so hard.... because of the hurt I feel on the inside...
I just want to let it all out...
I want ali back... I truely do... when I'm with ali I feel so safe... protected... wanted... now we're apart I feel so naked... like I've lost my protection coat... the one thing that I need in the world...I know ali can't be with anyone right now... but it scares me that I'll loose her to someone else... I've been with ali for almost two years... now shes gone... I'm blank.... lost all hope... and just back to the way I used to be two years ago....
heh I've posted so much lately... its quite funny... goes to show how much of a life I have... heh and how pathetic and unwanted I truely am... oh well... we can't all have perfect lives... expecially me... I'm just bound for an unhappy life... oh joy...
I should shutup and go...
cassie
I just want to let it all out...
I want ali back... I truely do... when I'm with ali I feel so safe... protected... wanted... now we're apart I feel so naked... like I've lost my protection coat... the one thing that I need in the world...I know ali can't be with anyone right now... but it scares me that I'll loose her to someone else... I've been with ali for almost two years... now shes gone... I'm blank.... lost all hope... and just back to the way I used to be two years ago....
heh I've posted so much lately... its quite funny... goes to show how much of a life I have... heh and how pathetic and unwanted I truely am... oh well... we can't all have perfect lives... expecially me... I'm just bound for an unhappy life... oh joy...
I should shutup and go...
cassie