Don't wanna grow up?atdarkenedskiesJune 28 2004, 00:36:06 UTC
*sits back in a chair watching the destruction unfold* Now this really isn't the best time to be leaving a comment to your journal considering I'm on a rampage myself and very pissed also with some other issues but... they got a point..to an extent. And then again I dont believe it's your fault entirely. I don't know what the circumstances are because I have not seen you in a while. If anyone is gonna say they got cut out of things... well I'm not gonna go there because I accepted that a long time ago in my life when I became friends with you. I'm good at keeping my mouth shut on issues and I can also be good at yelling the crap out of people when I feel it's necessary so bare with me. Megs, the reality isn't pretty and sure as hell never will be. You're a tough girl and you've pulled through a lot of crap even though you tend to turn subtle winds into hurricanes. Do you have an attitude problem? Yes, occassionally you do and that hasn't been helped by friends. I'm no bird of wisdom but I think you should listen to yourself once in a while and here what you say to people. I have no great complaints against you because you have always been a good friend to me even though I dont fit into your life anymore. Things are gonna have to change. College is gonna be a slap in the face if you dont start to pull yourself together. I know you're a very bright young woman and you have a lot of talent when you put your mind to it. But a lot of the time you act like you don't care what people have to say, but you do care. You care a lot. You don't want people to judge you but you bluntly put yourself out there for them to make that judgement... for them to notice you. However you push yourself so much for them to notice that you push just a little too much to where it's not good attention you're getting anymore. You need to chill down. Take a deep breath. Count back from 10 and look at what you've got to deal with. Don't take so much on your plate that you can't handle it all. Also you need to learn to get some manners around adults. They are people to be at least a little respected. True they aren't all great people but regardless we all have to put up with sh** that comes from all kinds of people. I know you say that your childhood has a lot to do with the way you are now, but the fact is that you can change that. You are so good at helping people be a little more outgoing and a little different but you yourself cant seem to change to help yourself for the better. You can't rely on others. That's the bottom line and I mean it completely. No one is going to wait on you and no one is going to always be able to come through for you. Welcome to the world. Backstabbers and gossipers. Great isn't it!? You want to get somewhere in this life then you're gonna have to get there with your own two feet. I know you, and I know you can take a stand when you want to. So, this time instead of taking a stand by yelling at people, take a stand and find out how you are gonna make it with as little help as possible. Don't get me wrong, there will always be some people that will help you along the way but I just want you to learn how to not let things affect you so deeply anymore. Now if you hate me after reading what I've written then I'm sorry but I won't take back a single word. Every last bit of it is true and I'm willing to sacrifice my friendship if it means that I get one chance to tell you the truth.
Very Sincerely,
Emili
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